acy ♥

hello.

2010-02-23T12:01:00.002+08:00

didnt thought i will write another post here,

just incase you didnt realised.

i have moved to here!

when i first moved to there,

i thought i wont write another sad entry but i was wrong.

it is still sad and depressing :(

when can i find my happy self back?

i hope it not lost and to never return again.

but this space is good, not much people read this anymore.

feel like ranting it off here but its too risky.

:( how and what shld i do?

share my thought and risk you knowing me too well?

probably not.... :)

i think i m speaking gibberish, again,

2009-07-31T20:34:00.002+08:00

closing down.

regrets

2009-07-16T02:36:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really wish i can turn back the clock,

make things right again.

no one knows how intense the pain is,

because no matter what happens,

i keep smiling, pretending i am alright.

but i am tired,

to keep up with this facade,

to ignore the sadness within.

my foolishness has lead me to lose precious bonds.

bonds i know i will never be able to retrieve back again.

if only i can make things right again,

i really miss having you in my life.

every time something happen,

i type the msg out and scrolled to look for your name,

and then i paused and delete the msg.

because i know,

we are not the same anymore.

sorry, really sorry.

some things are just not meant to be.

I WANT TO GET MARRIED.

2009-07-11T03:02:00.004+08:00

and of all a sudden,

i want to get married and have children.

:)

imagine me in a drop dead gorgeous white sexyback dress at the altar,

folding onto a bouquet of flowers,

without a groom.

SADDENING, hw to get married without a groom.

okay, this is why i want to have children.

awesome-ness cutest girls.

pictures does no justice.

if i can, i dont mind giving birth to 3 BUT,

i need a boyfriend first.

gdnight, i have work at 8.30am. WOOOS.

exam blues

2009-07-02T01:25:00.002+08:00

i am quite screwed.

mind is blank except for...

subnet mask, tcp/ip, osi layer, layers in the osi, lan, wan, man, hubs, server, bridge, peer to peer, open system, information frame, supervisory frame, bit stuffing.

visuals

2009-07-01T00:00:00.020+08:00

exam on thursday and friday!!

and omggg, only started on a few chapters.

where are my holidaysss...!!!!

21 days, just vanished like this.

*POOOF*

lazy to type, so feast your eyes on visuals. (:

disappointed like fuck.

2009-06-23T00:03:00.003+08:00

put yourself into my shoes,

see it from my point.

honestly, you are the last person i expected to hear those shitcrap from.

you were the one who encouraged me,

yes, i didnt paid any heed to your advices.

but still, you dont have to run me down until like this.

what you expected me to do?

i am only human, and a very emotional girl at that.

i admit i made mistakes but do you think,

i am any happier now?

do you seriously think i am not feeling any tinge of sadness?

if you think so, fuck you.

you were my bestfriend, are you still now, ask urself that.

are all these my faults, are they?

fucking ask yourself.

after everything that was said and done,

i truely am disappointed.

thanks , the ex-bestfriend.

to you, you know who you are.

2009-06-13T04:09:00.002+08:00

you were not who i thought you were,

i asked you a few times with that glimpse of hope,

it was foolish of me to even hope that for a split second,

you will throw away your god damn pride.

love is mutual yes i agree, but your definition of loving someone is warp.

how can you love someone so superficially?

was there nothing good about me?

was i that a horrid person that you cant even list out anything you like about me?

so if some other girls runs along and tell you, she is fond of you.

you too in turn like her too, is that your idea of love?

if thats the case, your love is so fragile,

builds easily and falls as easily too.

i thought after all these while, perhaps you have known a bit my character.

words and actions will affect me,

i will ponder and one thought leads to another.

infact your words pierced right through me, thoroughly.

if you think you were that an unimportant person in my life,

think again.

anyway thanks for making me fall even harder once again.

drunk shit.

2009-06-08T01:12:00.003+08:00

drank and got drunk again.

did stupid things and well,

cried and made a fool out of myself.

got myself 1 bruise on my chin, 1 bruise on my elbow, 1 bruise on my butt and 1 on my hand.

marvelous job!

i shld never drink again. :(

to those affected, i m really sorry.

i meant what i said, i know what i was saying too, was drunk BUT i was aware.

i just cannot control myself nor the tears nor the feelings i am having inside.

and so,

once again... i am sorry.

thursday blues.

2009-06-04T13:13:00.003+08:00

my attention span is very short.

sames goes for almost everything that i feel about.

but if i set my heart into doing it,

i will give my best in whatever that i do.

the above are very random.

i just feel like blogging but i have no idea what to blog about.

a dear friend of mine spoke to me the other day.

telling me things i had expected to hear.

i really wish i can drop everything i have,

just like how the wind carries the smoke away when you smoke.

its a very nice feeling when you see the smoke vanishing,

you know its wrong to smoke but,

its a very comforted feeling after everything.

screw the labtest that im gonna take at 3pm later.

screw the feelings i am having.

screw the people who make me miserable.

screw the the fact that i m weak.

screw every single thing right now.

i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

good riddance to crap like you.

what matters me the most.

2009-05-31T16:17:00.003+08:00

words cant flow out the way it used to be able to do so, now.

my mind is twirling with all the problems.

problems no one knows, and i dont wish to talk about.

i need some time out.

time to clear everything up.

time to do what i should.

time to break clean.

time to just be myself.

bored.

2009-05-29T15:43:00.003+08:00

i want to change hp!

i still love samsung..!

but suddenly very bored of it.

why isnt samsung producing any flip phones nows?

this is a very bimbotic moment of mine.

imagine u are angry upon reading an disturbing sms,

can vent your anger on the phone by slamming it shut.

haha.! do i make any sense?

i know damn long ago, but its damn appealing to me now.

so CUTE.

the weather is damn hot now and my throat feels funny.

my legs are wobbly from last night,

from grand cathay to wheelocks.

old alrdy, irene..!

on a random side point,

have you ever heard of :

qing yuan ling yin ?

i bet you haven because these are the names of :

andy jeremy valarie and me.

i m feeling rather lazy again.

so ...

goodbye!

happy as i can be.

2009-05-16T15:31:00.005+08:00

i have no recollections of what i have learnt in school for the past 4 weeks.

is it bad or was i not paying attention in class?

lab tests and MST coming up in the 7th week.

i am stuck at practical 1 for lab when my scheduled practical is 4.

what am i gonnnnaa do.

i left about 3 more weeks to start listening.

meanwhile, i stopped one of my tuition.

i am starting to regret my rash move but, its all for the child's good.

i exhausted myself thinking of ways to teach him,

and so i decided i am not the suitable teacher for him. :(

ANW, i have to start to not spend so much.

no money. no money. no money.

last minute meet up with colleen was love.

thank you for your enlightenment in you know what.

thank you for sharing with me.

thank you for being you.

meet my best friend-faiz.

nothing wrong with the picture right?

mayb. mayb not.

take a look back at the first picture.

gummy bears up his nose! :D

before i end this off,

i love surprises, especially so if its coming from you. (:

randoms

2009-05-10T17:39:00.001+08:00

i m rather lazy to type.

so let the pictures do the talking, yeah?

this was some random thing i did in school when i was bored.

and this was one random night we randomly meet for supper.

having supper at 2 places, no joke.

joan's 21st.

a so called celebration for shengchen.

which was rather amusing,

not knowing where to go and weird plans.

just imagine us from bugis -> ecp -> marina barrage -> boonlay

first time at the marina barrage,

company was goood but...

first time at a spectacular place have to be with someone special rightt.

anw my friend!

i wish you all the best in your life.

let go of all your burdens and start afresh.

one day, you will look back and laugh yourself silly.

and i know you will, and i will laugh with you at yourself.

hope you like the sashimi salad. HAHAHA.

and no, i dont treat you like a cow.

happy 20th. (:

*edited*

i got a freaking big ulcer thats like the size of 2 grains of rice joined together at the corner of my lips.

i cant close my mouth for the ucler hurts like hell. :(

and i have a huge pimple that seems to have a mind of its own,

continuously growing and on the verge of exploding.

i look hideous now with the horrible eye bags.

a conversation with one friend just now,

led me to ponder and see deeper into things.

i may seem extremely negative but,

you have to look at the darker sides of life and not just the nicer ones.

what's done can never be undone,

and sometimes i regret not controlling the fire.

and its all too late, i cannot go back time to make amends.

i have to continue forward to the world of unknowns.

technically i can do a u-turn on the road but i cant do a u-turn with my feelings,

and i m scared.

thus i can safely conclude,

" things can never be the same, ever again. "

steady as it is.

2009-05-05T01:39:00.002+08:00

i think people should learn,

to say it and mean it.

dont just go ahead and say or do stuff because you are obliged to do so.

i was right to disappear,

at times i regret for i am missing out on all the fun.

but looking at the future and comparing the past,

i was never needed, never really there in your lives, nothing to you.

i should stay firm in my decision and i will do so,

and i am not looking back, ever again.

KL. KL. KL.

2009-04-30T00:38:00.005+08:00

its another PH on friday!

and its not just another PH to me,

but its a very short getaway with my family and relatives !

KL, here i come~~~~

not to mention why i am pretty excited to be going there.

and its a secret though and only a few knows why..!

school had been pretty great,

so far, i have been missing the first 45 min of every morning lessons.

skipped 1 lecture and arriving late for every first lesson of the day.

am i proud of myself or what?

no motivation to go school on time or even wake up at 7.30am when i have 8am lessons.

what shld i do? its the 3rd year alrdy lah...

i miss ITP, not the boring chore that i am doing but the people.

never thought i would get attached to the people working there,

but i did and its not surprising, i know.

its very "irene ang" / "acy" to do just that.

are they sweet or what?

from 2.30pm after the boss left, it was talking and photos after photos.

(:

yunihamda birthday on the first day of school.

planned a really nice surprise for him,

could have been better but it was still a really GOOD surprise.

imagine whole lecture hall singing song,

and the birthday boy standing all the way in front.

birthdays one after another.

especially all those in year 1988,

all turning 21st, is that scary or what.

anw attended joan's 21st last sunday.

as you could have guessed, the theme was checkers.

i am starting to plan mine, i know damn far.

mayb by then, i whld have changed my mind.

i am so not prepared in this picture. :(

oh! oh! oh!

i SO want to get a polariod.

i was super super excited when i saw heng loong holding it.

i am so gonna save up for this new toy!

since 1995.

14 years of friendships that are built to last. <3.

hair cutttt.

2009-04-25T01:51:00.004+08:00

thank goodness fyp allocation is being settled!

i was fretting over it since thursday.

was in a very very bad mood but all is well now.

(:

and before i knew the problem is being resolved.

i went to get a haircut, very impromptu.!

i think my old habit is sneaking back to me.

i used to have the tendency to get a haircut whenever i am feeling helpless or angry.

it sounds really stupid but,

i super love the fuss my hair gets from the hair dresser.

its like my troubles get snipped off when he snips my hair.

was debating to chop off my hair this time round but was advised by the hair dresser not to.

so i am having the same style just shorter.

and oh, i am in a super bad mood.

so please try to give in to my whinings and grumblings & whatnot.

is this cool shit or what.!!!

was testing out with my sis's new lappy.

it has a webcam!

i know i damn sua-ku but it was so much fun!!

esp the videos my friend took of me when i was video called them.

and another photo a lot of ppl finds funny.

i hate that you affect me so much.

i hate whatever you said which affects me a lot.

i fucking hate.

KNN.

2009-04-18T20:57:00.003+08:00

if you like a person, why must you be ashamed of showing your love.

have to hide and give all sort of crap excuses.??

WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU.

i dont understand this logic at all.

its bullshit to me that you have to hide something.

everybody have a past, so why do you have to feign and act so innocent.

you know how detestable does this makes you?

OH BLOODY HELL, OF COURSE YOU DONT.

you dont have a brain inside that skull of yours.

its HALLOW, hw can i over-estimate you.

i cant stand it,

ASSHOLE YOU ARE.

KNNCB!

YOU ONE BLOODY FUCKER ASS.

if.

2009-04-18T01:40:00.002+08:00

if i die tml,

will you cry for me?

updates like finallllly.

2009-04-14T13:06:00.007+08:00

some time back,

it was a rather emotional experience which didnt involve my contribution of tears.

first, i know everybody have to move on in life.

secondly, my cousin going into army, evolving into a man.

no longer are we the little juveniles running about playing catching and disturbing our uncle.

trying to act ah beng / ah lians , exchange latest hp songs via infra-red ,

going to some shopping centres to rot there, its a endless list of the things we do when we were young.

among all my cousins, i guess we are considered quite close with ahboy & yanling.

and strangely, although we get along so well during family gathering,

we hardly meet up when theres no occasions.

lets try to do that more often yah?

one by one, my friends will be going in too.

and soon, things will change.

people drift further and further apart.

from close friends --> acquaintance --> hi-bye friends.

i have a few close friends becoming acquaintances and it very saddening.

perhaps it was my fault for letting things go and not mending anything.

but why whld i do that in the first place?

the answer is obvious to those who know me.

i wont want to drift away from any of my friends unless theres a particular reason.

before i turned this post into some emo sob post..

forever the joker.

lim jun kai, when you see this post.

you are a botak and you will appreciate this photo!! (:

-------------------------------------

it was TREE's birthday.

#1 - ah ling
val, why u look so sad!!

you are finally 19~~ (:

last yr being a teenager so better make full use of it.

lets work hard for year 3 tgt yeah?

#2

#3 so much better.

ah phuong.

ah min.

yours truely, ah yin.

after dinner, it was time for pranks.

prank was to collect signatures around vivo city on an umbrella. (:

BUT VAL AH, nt sporting enough one.

have to go back to acting busy. (:

next post will be on my trip to thailand,

and that i have to much to complain.

darn it.

byebye.

2009-04-09T15:46:00.003+08:00

byebye singapore..!

i am so gonna miss you, not.

hello thailand....!!!

*SCREAMS IN EXCITEMENT*

the fyp allocation dampen my mood a lot yesterday,

when i saw the group i was placed into,

vulgarities flew out of my mouth like it was of free flow.

it didnt register to me, i was in the office.

no image, irene. no image. (:

it was only quite some time later,

my colleague came to talk to me then i realised i had been a little too loud.

oh well~

on the sidenote,

i am rather mystified by the sudden disappearance of you.

it bugs me to wait for your non existent msgs.

it annoys me when i have to wait for something so important.

it frustrates and spoils my mood.

you seems to have disappear without a trace / sign / notice.

at least let me know what happen or you decide not to stick to your promise.

:(

goodbye.

one hell of a night

2009-03-29T11:27:00.002+08:00

everything came to a good closure last night.

i knew something bad will happen but i couldnt put my finger to it.

and when the news came all of a sudden,

my mind blanked out and it was free flow for the tears.

the revelation was too much to painful to know,

how stupid could i be?

the signs had been there,

i was just too stupid to realised.

and no longer will i be that stupid again.

goodbye, asshole.

illness keeps coming.

2009-03-26T22:57:00.005+08:00

'' dont even start if you dont have a good ending in your mind. ''

was on MC for yesterday and today.

and i didnt realised i was so much missed online. (:

thank you all for your greetings and keeping me in your prayers,

yours truly recovered but not totally yet. :(

for weird reasons i had a sore throat and flu on monday,

they became really bad overnight that i winced while swallowing my saliva / water.

went to work as usual and thats where,

mr fever decided to join the party.

i adjusted the office's temperature to 26 deg and i was still shivering,

so you can imagine how uncomfortable i was.

took 1/2 day and came home,

slept and mr fever decided to be funny and raised itself to a whoooping 39 deg.

fun right, not a single bit.

i suspect the office feng sui not good thats why i kept falling sick,

week after week.

it was food poisoning last week,

which got me into a bad scare but i lost 2kg within 2 days.

no complains for the weight loss. (:

i puked everything that i consumed and it got so bad,

i can hardly breathe properly, as in my chest area got too pain.

my kind sister scare me with the possibility of mild heart attack,

how kind right?

anw everything aside,

i am happy you made an effort to call / entertain me.

i appreciate it

but what you said really pricked me,

i m not angry just, disappointed.

just to end off my emotional state,

a picture i find emo.

me and my emo handsome cousin.

ah gong birthday!

2009-03-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

2 saturdays ago,

celebrated dearest grandfather's birthday.

its very heart warming to see every single of my relatives coming together to celebrate.

setting aside time and planning and whatnots.

all these leads to some depressing thoughts which i shall not mention.

enjoy!

2009-03-19T11:02:00.001+08:00

i feel rather EMO now.

i find myself.

2009-03-16T13:36:00.003+08:00

i find myself staring into oblivion,

more than once.

i find myself thinking too much,

often more than necessary.

i find myself waiting in vain,

for a phonecall/msg that never came.

i find myself mentioning about you,

a little too often.

i find myself missing you,

and this is bad.

issues.

2009-03-15T19:08:00.003+08:00

i think i have issues with myself,

and its not minor ones,

as much as i try to stop thinking about them,

it resurfaces as soon as i am alone.

i just want it to be gone soon.

work is goood.

2009-03-08T17:47:00.006+08:00

work has been relatively slack,

and i shldnt be complaining.

but have to go with the flow when people complain,

i should follow suit else stick out like a sorethumb.

HAHA.

suppose to reach work at 8.45am but my IC is very nice,

she lets me go in 9am but i cant make use of her generosity so i shall try to be earlier than 9am,

hopefully not as late as last friday.

i have to "fly" in my heels every morning as i battle against the working adults.

i have to squeeze into a train packed with people and it can get very smelly at times.

( i miss driving, i have not been driving for 1 week le.)

if not for the fact that the carpark charges are 1 dollar per half an hour, i whld have drove to work.

ughhhhh~

anw upon reaching work,

log on to ebuddy and sign in msn & facebook,

here my countdown begins daily without fail.

and oh! i was eating chocolate. (:

my tasks are to update a program with the candidates's resumes & call suitable candidates.

because yours truly gets hungry after lunch hour,

i stocked up the the drawer with snacks.

i know damn limited but better than nothing right?

play with my ds when i got bored of facebook, msn & surfing around.

and then i got bored of everything so i camwhored,

i present the nicest photo of all that i camwhored.

met up with sheryl babe for dinner.

pardon my excited expression.

friday was dinnner with ch&nette.

ehs caihua! ur picture not so nice so i nv post up here.

take more next time k?

and jielin!!!!!! join us next time, i misssss you!!!

we slack at tcc for quite awhile,

chatting about the good old days.

and i found out that the 4 of us have extra-ordinary habit.

and it has been forever but we spoke about it that night.

ahhh <3!! k-box date damn sooon.

i look damn shagged right?

but i like this photo!

question: shld i let my fringe grow OR trim it short.?

2009-03-05T15:45:00.001+08:00

i am supposed to be working but i have got nothing much to do, hence i shall blog.

plus the fact that i am super bored.

i think i am really lucky to have met a very nice boss in a nice company,

i got posted to do admin work for this agency.

but because i am too efficient, my work had all been done.

i have nothing left to do this entire 7 weeks!! (:

so she threw me a challenge in which i took it up,

to be a recruiter / consultant. :D

quite fun and stressful for i am speaking to the unknowns!!

okay, time to facebooook.

did this just now, rather true. (:

Your view on yourself: Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

spells.

2009-02-22T16:06:00.002+08:00

when the world comes crashing down,

i seek comfort in your arms.

but when those strong arms that are supposed to carry me,

disappears.

where do i go from here ?

what do i do now?

i always thought i can do it, on my own.

i m wrong, so wrong.

i went for the alternative not knowing what lies ahead of me,

despite many setbacks that are bound to make me torn,

despite my friends warnings,

i went ahead half knowing that i will be affected when it all ends.

this nasty feeling is really indescribable.

on to another point,

friends, why do i need so many of you people?

its at times like this, when i am the lowest,

i cant find any of your presence anywhere.

stop the pretense, pull down that mask.

i am nothing to you except a joke,

a clown that cheers you up when you need a joke.

the facade underneath is terrifying.

in short: i am disappointed with you. and you know who you are.

2009-02-17T23:27:00.004+08:00

one reason why i am not blogging :

LAZINESS.

and past few weeks seen me rushing for deadlines and whatnot.

i have no idea what will become of me without the help of lionel & raymond & caihua.

i think i will be super duper stress and go berserk.

midnight snackings and munching as i work on my assignments had me seeing the scales accelerating to a very astonishing weight.

decided to do something to it and that is- jogging as and when i can.

sometimes when things got lost,

it will be found if you have the heart to search for it.

i lost hope on retrieving back my thumbdrive when i lose it, the fourth time.

but!! i got it backk. (:

its really a miracle for i lose it at the library.

this is the first thumbdrive i have bought and i wont want to replace it.

hopefully, i learnt my lesson after this.

4 times i lose the same thumbdrive, and 4 times i got it back. (:

i m blesssed, yes? (:

some weeks back, went over to jielin's house warming and some catching up,

and the late night conversation with caihua the other night felt quite good. ( more of such talks pls, hints hints)

but i have to emphasise again,

thank you girls for not abandoning me.

since 1995 till present,

it has been a wonderful journey with the 3 of you.

its really is amazing to have this strong bond that one can hardly have,

and i have 3 of such bonds <3.

i really cherish each one of you no mater how not close we are. (:

more wonderful memories to come, alright?

anws, my intention was to spend valentine's day at home BUT,

last minute decision and planning by the.gang,

saw us wandering aimlessly at town, pooling session at clementi & Valkyrie at jurong point.

which led me to think of another scenario which i will not mention here.

reliance will lead to dependency which will in turn lead to ...................

BOOS HOOOS!

its exams period once again and i just learnt 3 chapters worth of math in a few hours.

courtsey to minhhh <3.

jiayou, ppl! last time we will be cramming math stuff into my brains.

no more math modules after this. *wooots*

after next monday, it will be a short mini 6 days worth of holidays before attachments starts.

attachment at some company in chinatown!

alrighty, i shld be reading NSM now.

the tuition kids whom i so dearly miss. :(

i cried buckets when it was my last lesson with them.

heartpain.

2009-02-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

3 times.

and i never learn my lesson.

:(

2009-02-02T16:59:00.001+08:00

complains.

2009-01-29T21:45:00.004+08:00

wanted to do a picture post but its too much of a hassle. ( i got lazy )

so i shall pen out my frustrations instead.

cny break came and flew away and before i know it,

its returning back to school and facing the deadlines.

NSM was a goner.

MAD, i only managed the basics, nothing in dept. ( damn netbeans)

PBL, i dun even know which question am i supposed to do.

FLASH, i haven even started a thing.

well done, irene ang! well done!

just to clarify some stuff regarding my previous post,

i m upset because ....

i have stopped tuition for the 2 pri kids

and it got me tearing on the last lesson,

i cried uncontrollably about 45 minutes after the lesson ended and i even cried during the start.

i know you think i am a bit too exaggerating but really,

its really very heart breaking when pri 1 kids can say,

" you are my only teacher , i dont want another teacher ".

the forlorn expression on their faces when i introduced the new teacher to them,

up to now, i wonder if i made a correct decision to drop them,

being so attached to them, almost as if i am their older sister.

mayb the problem lies with me,

i get too attached to things easily and its hard for me to drop it when i should let it go,

be it relationship or friendships or even my treasured things.

mayb i shld start building a wall and isolate myself,

or even learn how to be ice queen.

in that way, i cant and wont be getting hurt easily.

i need to vent my emotions out,

i think i need a good run with the refreshing night breeze and the threatening-to-rain-clouds.

being too attached is not a good thing.

2009-01-19T23:30:00.003+08:00

when i got so used to something,

being all comfy and everything,

and to have it been detached from me suddenly,

its a very undescribable and uncomfortable feeling.

i shldnt have let myself get so attached in the first place,

its my nature, my weakest point.

i should learn how to start fading away from here.

i should have known but how was i to know,

saying goodbye isnt that easy at all.

i will miss you.

farewell.

2009-01-06T22:17:00.003+08:00

this entry is going to be a very long and wordy one, so click the X button on the top right hand corner to escape.

at a age of 20,

i may not have sufficient experience to say the following but i feel like i have experienced enough partings in many different ways.

be it letting my heart be broken time and time over again,

or a few friendships gone in a moment of impulse,

or doing something i shouldnt have done or said,

or very simply, losing contact as time flies by.

many people walk in and out of our lives,

some stay and some just hang around waiting for something to happen.

a certain few will drift in and out,

( and if i happen to drift in and out of your life, i m sorry.

i have my reasons, just try to bear with me. )

we used to be able to share everything under the sun,

we shared a number of things in common,

we used to be very "open" with each other,

we used to be everything we are not now.

and sadly, as we proceed to a different part of our lives,

we drifted apart, seeing each other occasionally.

due to some misunderstandings that arent really cleared up,

it stood as a barrier.

it seems ages since i knew you but if we count back the exact timing,

a few years, yes?

fate is a very funny thing,

you can either have it, or you dont.

it takes fate to be friends, lovers and even a couple.

i wouldnt have known you if not for that job,

i wouldnt have keep in contact if you werent important in my life, ( once you were )

i wouldnt have be fond of you if you didnt say or do those memorable stuffs.

i have not forgotten anything.

there are many regrets in my life,

you aint one of them, i hope i am not one of yours either.

i am glad we left the feelings buried in us and didnt start anything.

i am glad too, we got past that awkwardness stage.

i m glad, we are friends, again.

it was a few weeks ago, that i learn about your new journey in life,

as you embarked on your new life,

i wish you all the best and do, keep in contact.

it all seems so cliche to say , keep in contact,

but how many of us really do that?

this is dedicated to whoever you think fits the descriptions of who i m writing.

taggg..

2009-01-03T02:02:00.004+08:00

tagged by priscillia toh.

According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you. And then tag 5 people.

i may appear to be smiling BUT i am very annoyed when people poke fun at my cute little mole on top of my lips.
i will fight for what i think i rightfully deserve, even if it means throwing my dignity. ( i regret it often )
its a known fact but i think my dimple on my right cheek is outta place.
i have a very short fuse, so dont try to mess with me unless you are prepared for my bomb.
i wish i have a appropriate figure from the top to the bottom
i dont like to come home to an empty home, as in theres no one at home
i can skip meals if nobody cooks for me
i think i am a guy in a girls' body at times
on certain days, i can wake up and look in the mirror and feel pretty but that ego of mine deflates very easily too
i have 2 pillows and 2 bolster on my tiny bed, i have this thought that a monster will grabbed me from below when i m sleeping.
i like to confide in strangers , as in not my very close friends ( i feel much at ease)
i dont give two hoots to good guys , instead i linger for the opposite
its natural of me to make promises, ( i am a sanguine! ) and for me to keep to it, it take efforts
i dont like my messy room when i want to study, but the irony is that i never pack up after messing my room up
i like surprises except bad ones
i can feel very guilty easily, if you touch onto my raw points
i am a very emotional human, i can cry until my lens dropped out during a movie
i m a huge sucker for sweet talks, so serenade me and i will be swept off
i have a tendency to distant myself from close friends from time to time, i flock here and there
i feel the 'kick' when people who first know me, looks at me in amazement when i say i have my car license

thats all you shld know about me,

you shldnt be knowing too much of me.

(:

the next five ppl is whoevers who reads this.

hello 2009.

2009-01-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

first entry of 2009,

and i m lacking so many posts behind. ( will do those as soon as i dont feel lazy. )

i have the hk post and countdown to 2009 post,

and some funny random posts i wanna share.

facebook is where you get your visuals about whats happening,

and my blog is where you read my inner thoughts.

2009 will be a great year, at least i will try to make that happen.

i will turn ..................... twenty1.

the horrors..!

anw, these were my resolutions for last yr.

resolutions for yr 2008:

1) concentrate on my studies, try not to depend on help. (failed)
2) better time management (failed)
3) spend more time with family (ok lah! i try to stay at home on weekends (: )
4) understand and believing in my bf (failed)
5) quit mango once and for all ( SUCCESS)
6) save at least 5k by the end of next yr (failed badly)
7) curb my temper (failed)
8) make sure i stay in touch with all my friends (not me to judge)

for this year ...

1) pull up my socks in my studies
2) drive carefully and avoid damaging the car
3) save lots of money
4) not to be late in all my appointments ( at least i try not to)
5) improve myself and be a better acy
6) have positive thinking
7) be a better friend
8) be a good daughter
9) be a nicer me

:(

2008-12-28T00:28:00.002+08:00

i am tired of hiding and keeping secrets.

its very exhausting,

i wish i can proudly exclaimed but i cant at this moment.

i dont wish for anything else other than this lifetime with you.

hello hongkong.

2008-12-20T01:24:00.008+08:00

luggage and company aside,

with the period in full swing and a popping out wisdom tooth,

they are both joining me to HK.

how great, tell me!!

anyway, before i leave ....

happy 21st, huimin.

i trust it was a memorable night for you? (:

kisses and all. heh.

sorry it was a last minute affair, you know we love you deep deep in our heart right?

cya on the 28th!

and lynette pek!

happy 20th! dont be depressed and get suicidal.

you are finally of same age like us. (:

hope you enjoy ur atlas and the fixing globe!

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some funny random shots. (:

i am so glad i have you people in my life!

13 years of friendship is very hard to find, lets keep the number growing, shall we?

merry christmas in advance!

*ps, sorry caihua, i m not spending christmas with you. first time ever since, i dunno when. i trust u will have fun still, without me! (:

same goes to jielin and lynette, merry christmas and i shall see you all with lianglin ....

next yr? HAHA.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

** dearest, you take care of yourself yah? do think of me when you are free. (: love & miss you! **

2008-12-15T23:20:00.004+08:00

i am a picky eater and i dont usually do recommendations of a place unless it really good.

i dont wish to share this place and broadcast it either too,

so unless u are interested, ASK ME.

half seafood and very chinese style of food, something like a buffet.

the food is simply fantastic and freshh.

worth every single cent!

(:

and i just planned to go there on the 27th with 5hope && 28th with the poly ppl ( if it gonna work out) .

* irene! irene! you are growing at the sides*

last week came and went in a flash,

went to double O for the first time and bumped into a teacher there,

love the place BUT the music wasnt to my liking.

i organised a bbq for a dear friend of mine and i m glad it went pretty smoothly with a little hiccups along.

it made me realised, i can be a cook afterall. heh.

i also had one hell of a ride ( adapted from pris ) ,

imagin 2 cars driving sideways with the people in them communicating.

(:

i m sorry i lost my patience ppl, i will learn to work harder at my patience and fuse.

and, that sums up ..

what i have done, i think.

OH YES !

i have my baby & sugar rush.

and i have a new addition, i haven thought of the perfect name for it yet.

probably using the name, faiz suggested.

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lugguage almost packed , countdown begins ....

byebye.

*edit: i feel so handicapped without the car. its feel so foreign to be taking public transport!!!!!!
the agony to squeeze and stand among ppl at peak hour is so .........................................

something happen to the steering wheel, tyres & the bottom part of the car.

i dun think i didnt anything that can destroy any of the above parts!

mayb its that 2 u-turns i did, that cause it to happen!

arughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

leave.

2008-12-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

i dont know what to do when i am in this situation,

i have no one to blame because i brought it on myself.

i cant ignore it as its matters too much to me,

i really dont know what do.

i wish everything will go away and things will be back to normal.

2008-12-11T23:09:00.004+08:00

i am contemplating into closing down this blog,

facebook is much much happening than this blog.

pictures speaks a million words, right?

my fb is speaking infinite words in that case.

holiday mood was in full gear before the mst started,

mafia wars was my drug until i lost interest somewhere.

i haven been making full use of my time,

and it sucks knowing i have so much to do but so little time.

i m lazy to do anything even uploading this blog is a big hassle!

besides, nobody really drop by anymore.

so ...

i shall stop here!!

full uniform!! tucked all the way in.

best pic, i think !!!

*ps, i m not spending christmas in sg this yr!

i cant wait .....

I AM NOT OKAY.

2008-12-04T22:20:00.004+08:00

i need a really good listening ear,

one who can hear all that i have to grumble.

and its not you,

its you that i need, to tell me, everything is a nightmare.

its a nightmare, isnt it?

most memorable- 221108

2008-11-28T01:13:00.002+08:00

it was a fun week last week and its was very much anticipated!! (:

i feel so loved lohh.

meets up with people who cares and whatnots.

i am a superstitious person, so i dont celebrate after my birthday is over.

defeats the purpose also, right?

so the entire week was fully packed and in a celebration mode. whoo hoo.

i think you are in high anticipation as to want to know how i was being pranked and all.

overall the pranks were mild lah, could have gone worst if there is another similar mind like mine.

(: still, i appreciate all the effort that every single one of you have put it!

so, this is pictures post and my heart-to-heart words to people who organised it.

19th Nov.

the usual photo taking of food. (:

i have no idea why people say we lookalike!! we dont....

i was losing the first round, so i resort to photo taking. (:

i have no idea why is she that happppy. LOL.

had dinner with angelia & my sister, joyce.

ended the night with games at the acarde and 2 games of bowling. (:

superb duper fun as, there was a show to watch.

if you are close to me, i would have alrdy shown you.

the hilarious girl jumping sideways when the ball rolled into the gutter.

*ps, i am sorry things turned out badly a week ago. it wasnt intended and i do not wish to lose you or this friendship. i know certain stuff that are being said cannot pretend that it didnt happened. i ask for your forgiveness and your courage to give this friendship another chance. i hope nothing will stand in our way, i know its hard to go back as to what we were before. i am sorry.

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20th Nov.

friends since pri 1. same sec school / class, now even same poly!! how cool right. (:

badly taken photo. need. to. lose. face. fats.

xl, william, garyson, don and melvin.

the future photographers!

hehe.

"shy".

of course the lousy skills the guys have, focus shld be on US.

ignore the girl on the extreme left. i am too lazy to edit and cut her away.

future models, pose pose pose.

happpy birthday to meee.

blowww.

i look white next to simonnne tyre. must up my blusher next time.!

* INSERT IMAGINATION OF PRISCILLIA AND ME *
hw come no photos of u and me. see lah, u take with other people except the birthday girl. hw can like this......

garysonnn!

note the girl's tattooos.

garyson,me and don.

i think there is no need to explain who are the extras. (:

loves.

more LOVE.

thank you all. it was a very wonderful night and i couldnt ask for more.

with friends like them, life is wonderfully goooood.

priscillia toe, thanks for planning everything and trying your best to get more people involved.
i am very touched. (: meet soon alright. good luck for ur upcoming exams.

simonne tyre, thank you so much for being there all the time. sorry i couldnt be there when you need me. aint that close anymore but lets not drift any further, alright?

garyson, melvin, don, xianlong and william ong! thanks for being there. and aiyee, i donnnt know what to say. i am superbly touched that you guys came down for me. (:

those having mst next week, jiayou!! after the exams! holidays are coming soon and its time to play play play!

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21st Nov

special thanks to 2a23, for the wonderful and rich chocolate cake! (:

i was ~~doing~~ copying math stuff halfway when andy came in with a cake and a song.

so malu can, and i believed my first words were .. WTH / WTF.

i was in a total shock! but i have to admit, i was awfully happpppy.

but the TEST JOKE, not goood and it certainly got me.

shy lahhh. (:

cut cake ceremony. wahahha.

BIGGER thanks to...

Valarie GOH , the mastermind behind the TEST.
thank you babe for masterminding everything! thanks for being my alarm clock since day 1 of year 2. thank you for withstanding my nonsense in class and being my sitting and pie eating partner. there are many many thank yous i wish to mention but i shall leave it for next time. (:

Andy GOH, the accomplice.
thank you for bringing the cake and singing so loudly. thank you for always showing me how to do flash and the many things i didnt listen in class. thank you for being a very funny friend, same goes to jeremy. ( not sure if jeremy is in the plan, but i shall be nice and give him the benefit of the doubt) thank you andy!!

John TEO, the another accomplice.
thank you for bucking up with the mastermind and the other accomplice. thank you for reminding me time over and over again, that i am twenty. thank you for urging andy to put 2 candles when he only wanted to put one. thank you for everything. (:

and when night falls, it was time to meet the girls who make poly life bearable.

holland V with them and a bit of clarke quey.

i think i disturbed them too much until ...

they really rack their brains and come up with revenge,

but its ok! the wig can be recycled for aunty huimin and passed on for val and than to minh and it shall stop there. (:

my hair colour nice righhht. (: * note the sash that i wore *

fully transformed into i dont know what. i appreciate so much you girls didnt include in the tiara and the wand. (:

quite nice but a bit too strong for the first mouth.

aunty huimin. (: ( i dont think you are innocent so .. ur birthday.. wahahaha. more long island tea for you. hehe.)

minhh phuonnng. (: ( need to get together to plan for huimin's birthday. )

valarieee. (: ( ur turn to rack ur brains and make sure huimin can remember us for life. )

chilled at the forbidden city. damn cool that place!

aunty huimin is drunk. wahhahhaa. 5, 10, 15, 20. *WINKS*

thank you girls for taking time out to celebrate with me.

it was a wicked fun night!

first time i wore a wig and walk across the river.

first time val drank and got high.

first time we hanged out in a bar.

more first times to come alright? (:

thank you for tolerating me in school.

TIP: i found my match in yong xiang for the 5-10-15. cannot play with him if want to be awake and not drunk.

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22nd NOV, the actual day.

the day started out a bit boring as i had nothing to do until 5pm

but the company made up for the lost hours in the day.

this day has to be the best and the most throw face day.

chan caihua & ang caiyin.

you didnt see it wrongly, its snails. quite yummmy. (:

black ink spaghetti.

i forgot the name but it was quite nice.

jielin's bf. ( i still dunno his name )

jielin and her half finished curry omu rice.

she is playing with the black ink spaghetti.

very adorable !! (:

this is why i need botox like in 10 years time.

i think it was candid but i like how i looked. happiness that is spreading about righht.

covering my double chin which jielin kept trying to take.

why so gloooomy.

much better. and this photo proves that canon camera is better den sony.

ch is not touching my chest.!!

quite like this picture too. (:

i was horrified at my prank.

i had to either put fake eyelashes into my nose and walk around or complete 5 other pranks.

chose the 5 other pranks option.

wasnt entirely as good BUT to put fake eyelashes into your nose and walk around.

*shakes head*

my 2 pony tails, imagine me walking around in these. :(

i am not very happy about this BUT, its such a cute photo right. hehe.

besties for life. how can i ever forgot you ppl!

after the above prank, i was made to ask a cute guy's hp number

and msg him the following...

the contents reads: hi sexy, what the colour of your underwear?

if he didnt reply, i had to look for another guy again.

so i had to plead with him!!

jielin! the memory of throwing paos outta lynette house will be imprinted, forever. (:

ch, i will always remember how me and lynette threw you outta my house.

lynette pek! i fondly remember the days how we tried to burned down my house. (:

rushed home afterwhich to blow cake with the family.

darn it, i was so in front. but me love me family.

i have no idea why it looks like my head is bigger than my body. :(

sister and her bf, and bestie. jielin missing. :(

after eveything, headed to my room to rest.

and to find out where to go for supper!

wanted tau huay but nobody knows the way.

so in the end, we draggged until it was nearing midnight.

in the process....

she love my wig. (:

she loving the wig, i didnt forced it on her!

manicured for her can. bloody sexy red nails and smiley faces.

i told you they were smiley face. (:

the best part was when lynette so busy face-booking!

i had the privilege to paint her toenails hot pink without her realising. hehee.

so its ch's blue toenails, lynette's hotpink toenails and my own non coloured toenails.

all in all, gratitude thanks to the following people who smsed/ msn-ed / facebooked me. :D

very unlikely, half the people here knows the existence of my blog but ..

here goes, in the orderly order. (:

weishen, valarie, shengchen, kiensing, huimin, junkai, erlina, steven , shiyuan, john, caihua, minh phuong, joy, garyson, sheryl, angelia, simonne, jaime, ting hui, ting yun , marilyn, jielin, colleen, yongquan, jenny, zechoa, yueying, xianlong, faiz, don, andi, wenwei, anifah ,traceson, ester, karjun, joel, sherleen, audrey koh, , zhi xuan, jun xian, marco , william , jinhua , lianglin, natalie, daphlyn, jeremy, jessica, allen, terence ,weidi, irene neo, pin pin, wan er,and of course my FAMILY.

i dont think i missed out anyone, if i did..

thank you so much for remembering the very special girl's birthday. hehe.

and of course the people who came out to celebrate the very special girl ( ME) birthday.

and before i forgot!

thank you to 1a23'07 who wanted to celebrate with me.

sorry i couldnt make it, mayb next year yeah? (:

once again, thank you every single person!!

the pranks, the food and the GREAT company.

made this 20th, a good one.

i know i made a big fuss of being 20.

actually, no much difference in being a year older. i shall learn how to embrace the bigger digits.

despite being older, i still wont be acting my age as that is my personality. (:

and the many other minor things.

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exams next week, have yet to start revision. :(

jiayou irene! and fellow friends who are having exams. (:

after exams, its the holidays and i m flyinggg off ..

to lovely HK.

whooohooooooo.

enough of bragging, byebye.

jielin 20th. (;

2008-11-17T11:09:00.003+08:00

we i took a whooping 209 photos on that fateful day( a few hours only).
dying of boredom from math and mad, i decided to compile these beautiful photos.
enjoy them, lee jielin!

see ch expressions.

i got help to blow ok? like mayb 3 outta all the balloons.

cam whoring is the best when you are outta energy to continue.

aside from honking at nette...

timer is gooood.

finally, a decent photo with nette!

next time posed for me mah, ur face expressions damn classic!

:)

so lovelllly.

:D i dunno what caption to put for this.

fixing up your prank. china balloonn.

fun anot? i personally think you very poor thing BUT we had fun watching you.

paisehs enough??

hiding ourselves.

leads to boredom & camwhorinng.

:) :) :) :) :)

hope you enjoyed yourself!

this 7Nov08, will be a very memorable one for you, right?

i do know that i am not as close as nette and ch, are to you.

i may not always turn up when you ppl meet.

i may not see you often.

BUT,

i remember the days we had.

no need to elaborate further, right?

happy *SENSORED AGE* birthday, my dear old friend.

busy as a bee.

2008-11-12T22:20:00.003+08:00

comments left made me fearful for a spilt second but after some confirmation,

no need to be alarmed, irene. (:

its a busy busy week next week..!

seems so bhb to be saying this but, i m nearly outta slots for next week.

and i dont do belated. sorry! :S

major sorry to all those that i enforced a certain timeline or period.

dont understand? nevermind.

to make things less complicated,

for next week, i am currently left with slots on..

tues and wednesday, all after 5pm.

looking forward to everything!!

** i shall not be late for school!!! **

edited: ALL days taken. :)

my accomplishments

2008-11-10T22:12:00.002+08:00

i have an amazing collection of 1889 photos.

i have been late for 1 hour daily for all my lessons last week.

i have been having supper 3 nights in a row. ( not good irene! )

i have been not acting my age, i got a nice picture to prove.

i have been counting down and disturbing TREE with it. ( sorry TREE!)

i have been telling ppl, i dont want surprise / dunno what i want. ACTUALLY, i do know! but shy to say lah.

i have successfully managed to surprised 3 ppl with very supportive help.

for the above, i m fearful of KARMA but then again,

let me boast a bit, so far i met no one who is as creative as me when it comes to pranks and surprises. (:

so .. nothing to be fearful of. ( only thing is .. mayb i will be forgotten. )

trying hard to switch to humble mode..

give me ur best shot, SURPRISE me. ( sounds so despo ehs? actual fact, i dreamt that i was being forgotten. :( after a comment made by ch. )

lazy to upload and compile.

this is me, being bored in class.

20 more days.

2008-11-02T22:51:00.002+08:00

ironically, 20 more days from today and the underlying meaning to it.

dont bother asking me what is with the 20 days,

go bang your head on your wall and never come back here, again.

shame on you!

(:

just joking, its for you to find out and for me to play dumb.

anw, its just a short update.

more details when i feel like it.

you know why ?

cause no tags of love for me.

no tag = sad irene.

sad irene = less post

so, what are you waiting for......

updates

2008-10-27T23:27:00.006+08:00

I SINCERELY APOLOGISE FOR MY LACK OF UPDATES.

pls dont boycott me and do come back from time to time. (:

my purrfect excuse for not updating is ..

i was sick with fever triumphing over my poor body ,

&& school work is piling.

so for me to fall sick on the 2nd week of school is very saddening.

as i promised some donkey years back,

photos.

i dunno long ago, but i think probably a few months.

angelia driving us out for a spin~

and some time before school started ...

besties forever.

* oh! note the height difference when i wore her heels and she wore my crocs. *

our very favourite haunt, jielin missing all the action.

its ur birthday soon.

*HIAK HIAK.*

on this very day, i fell ill and despite burning a fever of 38.9 degrees,

i went to meet the girls. ( you see hw much i love you all)

this place lets you draw on the paper provided,

got crayon so that explains why you see my beautiful initials.

posing with the chocolate cake.

its damn goood but expensive lohh.

and finally, a few days ago with erlina babe.

( sorry ch, for ditching you last minute. :X)

erlina: i m so gonna miss you. although i know i dont ususally meet up with you when you are in sg, and only do so when you are returning back. but, u know i know lah huh. come back soon, as soon as you can. i really hope you can change ur mindset though. all the best, babe. muack!

yesterday short cycling trip resulted to a partially burnt me.

yes, i am burnt on my poor little nose.

:(

i am awfully fair due to some funny reasons.

LAST but not least...

some funny random pictures. (:

this is yuni HAMda.

he who disturbs me, pay with a price.!!!

I DID IT AGAIN.

2008-10-17T00:46:00.003+08:00

i used the car from 8am to 10pm,

detroyed another part of the car again.

i think i am a genius.

as i m freaking tired for my own good to be driving.

and shit happens when you are tired, right?

shit happened to yuni & i laughed my ass off,

( up to now, as his face floated into my mind, i m bursting with laughters)

AND SHIT HAPPENED TO ME JUST NOW.

the carpark was too dark and i didnt see properly,

now the break light's cover is broken.

what am i to do now?

1) feign ignorance

2) admit it

3) fix the damage and pretend nothing happen

i am strongly for number 1.

and to top it all off,

i got a summon of 20 dollars BECAUSE i used up all the coupons,

and i put a half an hour coupon, and stayed there for nearly 2.5 hours.

usually nth happens, but TODAY...

ughhhhh.........

btw, my computer has a splendid number of 44 viruses.

and i cant download AVG,

help needed, urgently!!!

i think i m falling sick again.

damn the fever bug.

** colleen dear, i m sorry to prank you alright. hope you didnt bluff me about the matter. :X all in the name of fun, that i did that to you. hehe. yes, i know. lunch on me, when we catch up. (:

*** i decided to feign ignorance and live with the guilt, until it becomes unbearable.

school reopening.

2008-10-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

school starts tml and i am not looking forward to it at all.

the only thing i m looking forward is, tuesday gems class with people who made sp bearable.

as for now, the fever monster is subdued and i hope it stays that way for a long time.

its horrible to be waking up in a pool of sweat, with hair sticking all over your face and feeling sticky and yucky.

the medicine too.

its mid OCTOBER already, i want NOVEMBER to come soon. (:

time flies and if theres one thing i can lament on is,

i regret not working harder and listening to QNT's lesson.

i have to pull up my gpa else, i will be lost upon graduation.

now, lets hope my fighting spirit keeps glowing and not die out,

i have to rescue my failing grades this round.

picture post have to be postponed.

until then (:

2008-10-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

i was crazy enough to went out to meet the girls despite having a fever of 37.9 (:

halfway through our meal, val had to get me some panadol as my temp was shooting rocket high.

( minh and huimin, if you 2 fall sick, i will be guilty although i did playfully "cursed" you both.)

didnt proceed home as i was feeling better when minh and huimin left.

instead i hang about outside until 8 plus, by then i felt uncomfortable again.

upon reaching home, my fever came back all of a sudden.

wanted to perspire but i couldnt,

i was heating up at 38.6,

so i tried what minh did which nearly caused my life.

I ATTEMPTED TO JOG, and i nearly faint.

went to bed and tried to sleep.

and so ....

38.6 , 38.9 & 39.5 DEGREES.

these were the temperatures i was having last night,

it got so bad that i cried when my sister sponge me with cold water.

imagine me wrapped in my comforter and i m not perspiring at all, for the entire night.

my room pretty stuffy too, and i felt cold.

this morning it was bad that i decide to go for the jab.

and now part of my butt hurts. :(

life can be so cruel

2008-10-08T00:25:00.003+08:00

human are indeed very pretentious.

i am not saying, i aint guilty of the above charge.

just that i recently witness too much of such cases going around,

and it irks me to a certain extent that a thought instantly came into my mind,

to be brutally honest no matter what.

but then again, mayb not.

at this point of time,

i am very disturbed by a some comments that i just knew.

its very disturbing to know all these.

okay, sorry for lying to post those over-dued pictures.

SOON, before school resumes.

dreading school term. :(

hello curly.

2008-10-05T00:29:00.003+08:00

goodbye straight hair.

give a warm welcome to....

CURLY HAIR ( otherwise known as lion mane) .

i did the unimaginable thing and my feelings is on the fence now.

my head is very big, so erm..

i made it BIGGER by adding more *OOMMHPP* to my hair.

* i got lots to update but i am too lazy. so tune in like mayb in 24 hours, i shld have gotten over my laziness *

pokemon card

2008-09-27T01:05:00.006+08:00

pokemon card, thanks to you.

i feel so much relieved now.

:)

i wouldnt know what to do without you POKEMON CARD, seriously.

your silent companion spoke some sense to me as you listened to what i have to say.

you are like the light thru my darkest period.

thank you, pokemon card.

after going through rounds and stumblings,

my conclusion:

being in love can make you put on weight,
falling out of love can make you lose weight.

pokemon card is a real life example.

annoyed

2008-09-26T00:35:00.004+08:00

it's annoying when things doesnt go your way when you expects it to be.

it's even more annoying to stumble into secrets that you arent supposed to know.

it's the ultimate annoying moment when you realised,

you got to be grinning and be a hypocrite to something/someone detestable.

i am feeling very superbly annoyed,

dont bother to care for me for the sake of caring.

enough is enough,

i had enough all these shit coming my way.

you know what?

what hurts me the most, is knowing that you care but pretending you aint caring.

what's tormenting me is that i still have feelings for you.

what's painful to me, are the good memories followed on by the bad ones.

i need to move on but i just dont know how to let go.

what's left of me?

an empty shell.

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this week seems to be flying past me without realising it.

ITS FRIDAY ALRDY.

plans to club and get drunk have been put on shelve until i have no intentions to do so.

anw! tree is back, followed on by minh. (:

things to do before holidays ends:

- repair my baby
- contact huimin and drag her into my car for a spin.
- pri sch besties for lunch & catching up session ( that includes lianglin! )
- have steamboat with gary&co ( put on hold for AGES )
- meet sherly mama for retail therapy & buffet
- hopefully, MNG dinner since last round was being cancelled.
- go replace my license ( i am driving around without a license, anybody want to accompany me to UBI )
- pack my wardrobe again
- clear my ever messy room
- do something to my hair, mayb a haircut
- meet up with wd and treat him macdonald icecream
- ecp with sc whenever he wants
- supper nights with the usual suspects
- exercise and lose the weight that i have gained
- tutor my sister
- see everybody whom i haven seen in ages

its a mighty long list.

so good luck to me.

chasing after ...

2008-09-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

lately, i have been chasing after this japanese drama intro by tree!

quite nice but i prefer absolute boyfriend over just friends, anytime.

getting quite addicted to the japanese language, i m thinking of picking it up

but i know myself too well to know, its 1 minute of hot passion affair.

these few days have been rather rocky,

and that includes my emotions too.

this month's cramps are quite disturbing.

its the 3rd day and i am still having bad cramps,

it got quite bad that i cant walk properly.

:(

okay, what is annoying is the china milk incident.

theres so much stuff i cant eat now,

magnum ice cream & chocolates bars & those round round small small pastry like biscuit.

i think its a random post,

and for some reason,

i am annoyed at my random-ness.

2008-09-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

i am very tired,

i really am.

these feelings wont go away.

2008-09-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

i am feeling very irritated and grouchy at the slightest thing.

could be the time of the month is near OR i haven been having enough sleep.

meanwhile, those who ask to meet up but i couldnt make it, i m sorry.

3 more weeks of holidays, left. :(

the last week is solitude and stay-at-home time.

so that makes 2 more weeks to ask me out.

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what do you take me for?

i know i mean nothing to you, but what with the fucking attitude ?

you need me, you humbly bow down your head.

when you dont need me, my name dont exist in your dictionary.

time shown me what kind of person you are.

when you lie, you need another lie to cover up that lie.

hw many times are you going to continue lying if i continue being ignorant?

thanks for everything.

i am very annoyed as i m typing now.

i m sorry weidi, for snapping at you.

sunday treat you eat icecream.

finally....

2008-09-19T00:25:00.011+08:00

my sincere apologies if you have been faithfully coming here,

and left when you saw that no new post are up.

i have been a pretty busy woman, hehe.

meet ups & tutions are time consuming, alright.

as such, i have too much photos to upload, courtesy of baby.

but frm this week onwards, my baby have to be separated from me.

dont ask me what happen, its very saddening to think of it.

just pray for the speedy recovery for me, wont you?

alright, first up!

supper photos taken some time back.

i swear this bunch of ppl are the most hilarious bunch.

more meet up, pls!

( i hope ks remembers my mangoes. hehe.)

meet up with long time bestie, chan.

no pictures of me as i was in a foul mood.

thanks babe for accompanying in and out, shops after shops.

1b23 gathering-cum-birthday-celebrations.

no full attendance but, oh well.

what to expect from a class of 16.

anw!

it was the very first time i had stomache after eating at seoul garden.

details not necessary, those online heard me grumbled the shit out.

or had the conversation on hold as i rush to the toilet.

it was a very bad night, lah.

erlina dear is back!

but due to our very packed schedule...

just have to make use of the very little time we have.

seeing you tml, (:

birthday celebration at ECP.

there were candles and sparklers.

cannot resist taking a few shots.

happy 20th priscillia toh.

old woman alrdy.

hope you had a wonderful birthday!

and finally, presenting ....

are you ready?

sugar rush <3

my sister is in danger

2008-09-11T16:19:00.002+08:00

my sister is obesssed with an alien looking lookalike human.

SCREAMS HORROR.

anw, very eventful holidays so far!

meets up with many many of my loves that i have neglected. (:

resulting to a very big hole in my pockets now.

meets up were great and splendid!!

i notice many ppl coming to this small blog of mine..

but why no tags huh.

can you see the small little tagboard appealing for you to leave the owner a note ?

obviously, kind words appreciated.

which reminds me,

thanks WD and HB ( feels wrong calling you this ! ) for showering me concern about my upset & useless tummy.

i dunno what went wrong but the tummy is feeling much better alrdy.

i think its the uncooked food i ate at seoul garden. ( LOOKS are fareast.. heh. )

it could be that lonely hotdog that the master cook grilled OR,

it could be that awfully sweet spaghetti that huimin cannot finish. ( LOOKS at huimin and do the 26 dollars chant. )

what else have i been up to?

( recap in reverse mode or what ever it is called )

meet my lovely chanchan on monday. (:

lets go shop for ur clothes soon, my lovely gf.

ur suddenly HUGE boobies fotos with me, nudge me when you see me online.

i miss running over to your house whenever i encounter shitty stuff.

ahhhh, why did i have to move to queenstownnn.

misses you alrdy. ):

had supper with sc,jh, ks & sis on a very early sunday morning.

they concluded that i am a very reckless and dangerous driver. ):

i am not lohh, seriously.

meet up with mistress kwek on a very early saturday morning.

thanks for accompanying me. (:

love you lots lots lots.

dinner with sheeshee last week.

next time, must plan more time so got time allowance to walk about or chitchat.

(:

parted with sheeshee and an impromptu meeting with sheryl to vivo.

had earl swenson, and its heavenly.

shiokness~ ( now i know why i have no money now. )

this sums up my rather busy weeks of holidays.

on my 2nd week of holidays now.

4 more weeks to go.

SO to avoid disappointment in not being able to meet me,

faster book ur appointments now.

heh, say until i busy woman like that.

results out next week, oh fuck!

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okay, pictures in next post.

and another post on my most precious and love :my sugarrush & baby.

:(

2008-09-10T02:17:00.001+08:00

i got the worst case of stomache now.

i been to the toilet for 5 times so far.

i think tonight sleep in toilet le.

IT fair & seoul garden craving being fullfilled.

2008-09-02T01:13:00.009+08:00

on saturday, i went to bugis with sheryl mama.!

suan pan, i dunno what the correct term for it BUT, its damn good. (:

i wasnt ready yet lah,

and the IT FAIR.

spent a mere 5 dollars on a mirco sd memory card for sugar rush!

its awesome and i am pretty sure sugar rush adores my $5 investment.

freaking crowded lah.

got pushed, nudged and stepped.

the true spirit of a singaporean are all showcased.

after it all, we settled down at seoul garden.

thanks babe for accompromising to me. (:

i m a very happy person because i had the craving fullfilled, after dunno hw many months!

the final mess. (:

there was this family beside us,

the little boy was entertaining!

he was taking photos for his parents and suddenly,

he took me!

aha! caught you!

still take somemore!!

i took him too, haha.

after major business in the toilet after dinner,

procceed for iceSCREAMMMM at the ever freezing marinasquare.

eat some more IRENE, your double chin is protruding out.

i m contemplating really hard on this zara dress but i hardly wear dresses. GAH.

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sheryl dear,
sorry for making you wait for a long time.
this cute habit of mine never fails to amaze me.
i made you wait for like an hour!
was expecting to see a black face but you are so sweeet,
instead you show me your freshly squeezed pimple scar.
hehe. anw! i m glad we met and became friends.
(: gosh! i miss working at mng.
hope you had a wonderful 20th birthday,

old lady .!!

loves,
ang.

&& not forgetting,

don ng, the old man!
happy 20th~

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L.O.V.E

2008-08-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

memorized so much ssd theory but it didnt came out.

so SAD can. :(

waste my memory space, but luckily its a short lifespan kinda affair.

turned out that the paper have so much coding questions,

and i cant code for nuts.

okay, exams over like finallly.

6 weeks of play & fun & play & fun & more PLAY & FUN.

WOWNESS!!

suddenly got reminded there still icd project to touch up on.

okay, the main thing i wanna blog about to get them off my chest.

i was on my way out to give tuition when i walked pass this flat,

there was this guy who apparently wanna commit suicide.

as i was late, i didnt stay on and watch the civil defense people do their job.

upon reaching the house where i am to give tuition at,

i saw this very big white truck with the words, CID FORENSIC.

as i approached nearer,

i could see a trail of blood and a tent.

the image of the lift is so much worst.

blood were being splattered all around from the walls to the ground.

it was a horrible sight and the stench of blood made me nauseous.

until now, as i m typing this, i cant seem to shake the images away.

although i never see the body BUT, the splattered blood is enough.

traumatizing memories are back to haunt me again.

i will never forget the year 2000, my 12th birthday.

i saw a body hanging down from the shelter,

the man was in a very awkward position with blood dripping out from his mouth.

that image isnt very easily removed from my memory,

it still haunts me whenever i walk through a shelter.

no joke ! not a drama plot either.

i think this year have been a very happening year,

events after events.

its time for bed.

i hope i dont get nightmare tonight.

say goodbye to exams in 7.5 hours.

2008-08-29T01:26:00.005+08:00

interestingly, many ppl query about my nick.

and i was busy "studying" so i didnt purposely ignore those who talk to me.

(:

acy ` braindead.
shld i take the risk? [erlina, call me when u see this. misses! ]

the risk is to only learnt the related topics from the past yr papers and not everything.

and i am feeling nervous now.

what if.....

better stop thinking too much.

in 7.5 hours time,

i will be FREEEEEEEEE.

the smell of freedom is heavenly.

hahahhahahahhahaahahaa.

(: (: (:

clubbing khakis, you all better reappear.

shopping mates, you all better come out.

slacking and rotting buddies, you all better be free when i date you.

oh my oh my !

the thought of next week activities is orgasmic.

ecp outings, bowling trips, japanese feast ( sheryl, you owe me! ) , steamboatings , late night suppers , shopping , zoo-ing and what nots.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

happy night.

2008-08-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

a few of the many perks why giving tuition is good.

-the pride in knowing you have drilled something into their brain and that it will see them through life. ( of cause, i have my funny ways of drilling stuff into them)

- the great sense of satisfaction when they do well for their exams. (:

sidetrack: my boonlay kid scored 90 outta 100 for math!! whoooo hooo.

i really feel like a proud mother showing off her child's results. hehs.

- the proud aura that keeps churning out when you see him/her doing well.

- good money not to mention being in a seating position.

- you get to talk more and less listening.

BUT OF CAUSE ...

- the huge amount of responsibilities when he/she did not met the requirement.

- the amount of white hair sprouting out when exams are nearing.

- the humongous amount of stress when he/she cannot absorbed what that are needed.

- the countless times of stabbing your own heart or pulling your hair or ( most extreme in my case) punching your hand onto the table.

- think on the spot of other creative ways to make the stuff get drilled into the brain.

all the above are worth it when you know they tried their best and ....

they remember you on days like ..

TEACHERS' DAY!

cause i am nothing but a tuition teacher to them only. (:

i hope to be their friend, one day.! dont care the age gap lah.

FAIZ.

2008-08-26T16:04:00.001+08:00

this is what i call, a good friend.

this guy never fails to cheer me up.

i dont know how you always do this, but yes!

always the right msg sent to make me feel happier at the right timing.

perhaps you are bored,

or whatsoever.

but really, you are appreciated.

why arent we in the same class anymore.....

major updates.

2008-08-23T15:41:00.019+08:00

math paper was a total FLOP.

i cant believed i actually left SECTION C, blank.

i cant believed that i had actually finished the paper by 9.40am.

i cant even believed that i actually cried for stupid maths after that. ( the last time i cried after a paper was like, in 2005. dont mention about exams results and all. )

many thanks to minh phuong & garyson who taught me.

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[ i know i said i wont be blogging until my exams are over BUT i need to let off some steam before i officially go crazy ]

over dued photos.

so its photos after photos and less of me typing. (:

teaching my k2 , models ! GENIUS right me?

anw, me like playing with the colour sway function on my ixus85.

think i should follow the trend of everybody naming their gadgets.

made my classmates skin, turned TANNED. (:

one of the ladies night saw us at MOS.

got puked at, horrible experience.

on one random saturday night....

dont u love her red pouty lips.

the drink i was conned into buying. $4 can!!!

taste horrible. bland like plain water like that.

see, we were hardworking can.

one day, pris decided to pop by...

her greens.

the day my dear wallet decided to 离家出走 .

the "shy" girl accompanied me, heard me whined and grumbled non stop.

the day my sister birthday & i got together with my sugar rush.

* more to update on my sugar rush, but that will be another entry dedicated to him*

can you feel the love??? (:

so much loves.

fish food platterrr.

swordfish is the bomb.

mfba decided to call me out, but to my horror!

to hunt a present for his gf.

GRRRR.

you owed me that steering wheel cover. (:

study day with cousin.

dinner at some blk in bukit merah.

damn good and dirt cheap.

look at his burning sexy red lipps.

in an attempt to look for smart casual dressing,

i turned my already messy room, more messier.

table 61 is a table for 10.

but only 6 seats were taken up.

which means...

more fooood for us.

didnt take the rest of the food alrdy.

was too busy gorging on the feast.

my fav pic, dont ask me why.

some cam whoring (:

crampping math shit into our brains.

i miss my girls.

math exams never fails to dampen my mood.

so its, sushi tei and angelia to the rescue.!

all time favourites at sushi tei.

i had 6 plates, she had 5.

me WON! (:

look at my double chin. :(

need to diet.

okays, its raining non stop and heres a picture of me..

I AM FEELING BLUE.

floating.....

2008-08-20T22:23:00.003+08:00

i feel like i cant breathe.

death seems like a good way out.

EDITED:

confirm flunk math.

within half an hour, i alrdy completed what i knew.

the paper is 2 hours long.

for a long time, i never felt this stupid.

and i cried like its a free flow of water.

the horrible cramps are working its magic, once again.

no wonder i feel so grouchy and snappy and very very short-fused.

lazy to reply to tagboard as my head is kinda foggy.

but do continue tagging, its highly entertaining to see the "little" chat going on.

quiz & dinnner

2008-08-17T14:21:00.004+08:00

splendid dinner at swisshotel with pris.

(:

i believed, that feast and atmosphere, will our luck for the better in no time!

recharged and all ready to MUG.

wont be blogging until the papers are over. [ 29th aug ]

ASK ME OUT AFTER THE 29TH !! CAUSE IT WILL BE HOLIDAYSSS UNTIL MID OCT.

WHOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

better start booking your appointments,

i am a *ahem* busy woman. (:

meanwhile, do keep feeding me with your love.

&& help click on my advertisments!!

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did the below quiz.

interestingly accurate.

quiz taken from junkai's post.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

2008-08-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

so the big and unluckiest issue that recently happened was:

the car battery / starter DIED on me halfway, while i am still driving.

to make matters worst, i was on a slope going onto a 2 way street.

leg too tired, so i stalled the car when it was my turn to turned out.

:S

so i did what i always do best when on slope,

restart the damn engine!!

but on this very fateful day, it decided to rebelled against me.

it didnt start despite the number of times i turned!

the car started to slide backwards,

!!!!!

thank goodness i got the brains to pulled up the handbrake.

waited for 20minute and NOBODY, i repeat, NOBODY helped.

was almost close to tears, i tell you.

an old man came by and helped controlled the traffic as i literally jammed the whole road.

(:

and the usual trying to jolt the battery affair and all.

i shall minus the glory details, ask me personally.

it is super paisehs to the core.

it involves the old man who helped, rolling eyes at me.

AND, main thing is..

there was this hunk who came to help pushed the car.

(: (: (: (: (: (:

handsome okay!

dad wants me to pay half half for the stupid battery.

where to find money?

the car really is making me poor.

DAMNIT.

need to save money for rainy days, but how with all these shit.

my total assets are only 58 dollars, until the next payday.

which only happens 3 weeks from now.

because i stopped tuition to concentrate on exams.

:(

anybody willing to spare some cash to me?

for those who stays in bishan or walked pass bishan mrt station early in the morning,

will know the below lingo. :)

* mei you gong zuo,
mei you xiao hai,
qing ni bang bang mang,
ke lian ke lian wo,
zhe ge qiong nu hai *

INSERT ur imagination of me,

squatting down with packets of tissues in both hands,

waved around at passer-bys.

memorable day.

2008-08-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

very memorable day today.

the car battery died out on me in the middle of the road!

whats worst?

i am on a steep slope.

elaborate more tomorrow!

time to calm myself down.

emo thoughts.

2008-08-11T00:49:00.005+08:00

i have finally completed, couple or trouble!

16 episodes in 3 days.

an accomplishment i must say!

* big and loud claps to the girl who rarely finishes what she starts *

to date, the only dramas i watched non stop and got seriously hooked are :

gossip girls & couple or trouble

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cant remember what happened the past few days,

did quizzes for ssd, touched a little on dbms and icd.

tried to do math, nearly cried because i m too dumb to know how to do math.

yes, laugh at the idiot who dont know math.

attempted to study with garyson & pris failed badly, yesterday.

we were all having too much fun by watching the national day parade on the big black box.

public holidays are so not happening this yr, i wonder why.

have i lost my sense of mingle-ness or my ability to have fun.

i think, i have lost the sense to be sociable.

but then again, i was never sociable to begin with in the first place.

my life now revolves around very few people now.

not that i m bored with them, just sometimes..

i wish i can go back to the past,

where i was more "open" to strangers, thus making friends much easier.

i may seems like a person who have many friends but the truth is,

i feel very lonely most of the times.

i dont need fair-weather friends,

i just need true friends.

the surprising thing i discovered is,

i find it so much easier to open up to strangers than my close acquaintance.

i dont meant randomly talking to strangers but you get the drift, dont you ?

before i revolve into miss emo, i better put a stop to all these thoughts.

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- i want to learn korean. (:

but i suspect its a 3 minute of hot passion affair. ( direct translation from chinese)

- i want to cut my hair.

i will definitely regret after snipping it short. BUT, i m boreddddddd of my hairstyle now! the last trim was like, 8th april and the occasional trimming of my fringe by myself! (:

- i want to regain my confidence.

sounds dumb but, i want to be confident in all that i do again.

- i want 'papa' / mfba to drive me around for good food again! * HINTS *

- i want to go for retail therapy!

- i want to eat orh-bee-mui now.

- i want to drop all my tuition kids and work part time, somewhere.

- i want to know what is it to love and be love in return.

rojak entry

2008-08-06T00:09:00.004+08:00

past few days being staying up too late.

last night, the most POWER one lah, stay in school until 12.40am!

cant believed myself either.

ICD and SSD assigments are finally completed.

thank goodness!

had both the interviews today,

didnt go rather well. :(

oh well, its OVER.

time to rejoice! MUG hard.

any fellow muggers, do text me!

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gems ppt went rather well,

despite the fact that my group never meet up at all for the discussion.

just went msn and discuss through there and sorted the ppt slides out, rather evenly.

i learnt something useful about the module i have chosen.

" memories are wonderful only if we dont have to deal with the past.
they never finish as long as you are alive. "

for those who had once held a place in my heart,
this is for you, the once special one.
i may have since turned cold and hard,
forgive me of my needs and want.
whats the needs and the want?
where were you when i needed you ?
what were you thinking when i needed an explanation?
couldnt you have given me what i wanted to hear?

the above is written by yours truely didnt meant to pin point to anyone at all.

its about the mood and tone of it right? (:

but then again, mayb i do meant it.

LOL.
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its said that when one loses something, one will gain something in returned.

i lost many things,

didnt really gain anything in return except heartaches and regrets.

*EDITED*

need to replace :

- driving license or risk getting caught without a license.
( any kind souls want to accompany me to faraway, UBI?)

- my student admin card before exams

- student ezlink
( so can make use of the student meals at MAC and KFC . * very cheapo*

okay! my brain not functioning very well, its like i m having this illusion of the bed & my bolster calling out to me.

* oh! i have to make an announcement! i finally found my perfect companion after going hysterical and sleepless since i lost something precious a few months back. my sugar rush has been such a dear since we got together on the 31stjuly08! (: so far, no problems with my baby and i m loving it! every morning, without fail since we bonded as one, guess the first thing thats on my mind as i open my eyes and embrace the new day. the nicest body i ever seen ( yummy!) , the most melodious sound i ever heard other than my own and other good stuff about my sugar rush that i will slowly let you in about. *

2008-08-03T21:28:00.003+08:00

i have to much to complain but the sentences cant be formed.

i want to drop everything and run away from everything and everyone.

facing nobody questions but to bury myself into the comforts of someone i can trust.

of all thats happening now, who can i trust?

can i trust you?

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a lot of photos i want to share but the mood isnt there except for this particular screen shot i took while talking to this crazy and wacky friend.

this crazy and wacky friend is none other than, faiz.

who is very thick skinned , always like to compliment himself!

HAHA!

a roller coaster ride gone wrong.

2008-07-30T23:56:00.004+08:00

these 2 nights been a little too freaky.

unknowingly, i stumbled into blogs where the owners recently died.

the blogs remains as a very painful reminder that the writer is dead.

that got me thinking,

if i die suddenly.

will you grieve over me?

this is not a dumb question but a query.

i am seriously very emotional now.

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so by now, most of you have heard me complained over my loss of my precious wallet.

the content : over 100++ dollars , uob & posb cards, DRIVING LICENSE, some memberships cards which i cant remember what and my 2 just top up with 10 dollars each ezlink cards.

imagine , my heart breaking into pieces when i couldnt find it.

its my beloved wallet also.

i combed every stalls of GUESS, until i found it.

so suay lah! knnncb.

how i lose it, you wonder?

ans: my carelessness.

in my hurry, i rushed off to the next destination without placing the wallet into the deeper part of my bag. so when i rushed ( ran ) off , it decided to hopped out of my bag.

i think i m cursed, somehow or another.

everytime i think of something, something bad happens.

its proven, a lot of times alrdy.

knncbnnkkj. !@#$^&*

* thanks to you-know-who, who kept me companied while i went into a frenzy and started behaving like a madwoman. heart to heart chats, have proved to be not very fruitful in analysing what went wrong but at least, i can openly tell you how i felt. may the new bags, bring us better luck! *

right now: i have 2 growing bigger by the minute uclers in my mouth. and it hurts like pure bitches.

a note to self: irene ang caiyin, well done.!

your carelessness had outdone you, this time.

keep up the extremely good work!

first the hp,

second the thumbdrive,

third the wallet.

whats next?

i think , you are gonna lose yourself.

2008-07-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

good bye, my dear wallet.

you have been a good sport.

i miss you.

2008-07-29T00:28:00.002+08:00

was stalking some blogs, clicking here and there where i chanced upon this blog.

its about this girl's bf died while serving NS in brunei for a period 10 days.

why he died? nothing was mentioned.

tough army training, perhaps?

her blog, served as a place to record her memories of him&her at most happier moments.

take time to read this if you have the time.

when i saw the word, brunei, immediately i thought of a special someone.

after reading the above blog about the bf, mysteriously passing away in brunei.

the first few things i did, was to thank GOD, ss was safe and back in singapore.

even if, its a good 4 to 5 months ago, thing.

you know who you are, i doubt you even read this blog still.

but i just want you to know if you ever did came back by any chance,

to read this blog, you were once special.

and also to thank god, that william was posted to the police force.

i dont think i can be as strong as her, to continue living.

if any of my love ones, passed away.

what my breakup or not meant to be kinda thing, compared to her loss.

its a permanent loss, gone forever.

only the love and memories remain.

side tracking here ..

[ gosh! my friends will be serving the nation soon, in 1 yr more to come.

what a frightening thought!

we are all growing older. ]

so you have to treasure what you have, before it been taken away from you.

otherwise known as,

treasure whatever is around you, before its gone.

to be a couple, you need love.

ironically, you need fate to love.

and hence, when theres fate , there is love.

so fate = love.

it have taken me 1 big round,

billion litres of tears,

losing weight & many emo emo stuff to realised,

the one i need are right here beside me, all along.

my beloved family. <3

2008-07-27T15:56:00.002+08:00

my wisdom tooth which is poking its way out, hurts alot.

its affecting my brain to think properly and mood to study.

its been fun playing with my camera, loving it more and more every time i used it.

(:

time to end this very very abruptly.

good day.

2008-07-23T01:20:00.004+08:00

meet my new friend whose name, i dont even know! HAH.

angela also known as ah monnng.

mng <3

angela, dioreen, sheryl & me

posing outside cine.

i was skeptical to go meet them because i felt i will be left out.

am i glad i went in the end!

hearing them yakked about mng happenings made me miss working at mng very much.

very little pay but staff discounts are (: && the company!

i miss everybody at mng, including siewlan. HOHO.

me is emotional when it comes to bonding sessions.

had heart to heart chats with them,

very enlightening to know the mindset of guys.

ouch! ouch! ouch!

moving onto another depressing issue,

the very smart side of me, forgot to pluck my thumbdrive out!!

not once, not twice BUT THRICE alrdy.

the first 2 times, i was lucky enough to retrived it back but atlas!

i aint that lucky on the third time thus losing my precious toshiba thumbdrive. ):

i can go on wailing over my projects inside!

but i shall spare you the agony of my grumblings and whines over my carelessness.

disturbed monnie love at 3monkeys on fri & sat.

thanks babe, for the treat! after i clear my projects, i'll be calling you soon! clubbing during holidays, like in er... 1 mth time. (:

over the weekends, its my ~~youngest~~ oldest gf birthday!

celebrated at fish&co, planned many wicked pranks with jielin.

our legacies as pranksters cant be easily washed away lah.

icecream, head-smashing into cake, wear a striking red top around town and embarrassing her at fish&co.

inventing pranks and making sure it carries out well, is my specialty. (: (: (:

CHAN MALI CHAN, OIE OIE.

dearest chan,
happy 20th, babe!
i know you love me lots for all the pranks!
do remember even if i dont stay at bishan anymore
or even if i dont have much time to spare.
you know i am always here if you ever need me, alrights?
as tacky as this sounds,
bbf ok, my beloved lam-nun.
i will always remember how me and netter throw you out of my house!
or how funny your fringe looked in pri5.
how we chase the ~~useless~~ boys from 6h, around the school porch. heh.
or how i always call you when i encounter shitty stuff.
how i can tease you for being short! HOHOHO~!
no matter how far we live apart,
or how different our lifestyles are from each other..
you will always be one of my sister.
loves,
rene.

over the weekend, i mentioned i wanted to get a new hp.

the attempt failed badly because of some reasons

BUT...

dearest mummy consoled me with a new camera!

presenting..... baby canon ixus 85is.

now, with the camera out of the wishlist.

i am left with all these tech WANTS :

- samsung soul ( i still love this hp) or samsung omnia or samsung F480
- psp slim
- ipod nano
- thumbdrive

okay! time to snoooze. its 2.04am and i have a class at 8am.

gooood luck to me.

2008-07-20T15:21:00.004+08:00

its have been a very busy and a bit fuck up week.

all in point forms cause my brain not functioning very well

- farewell dinner for angela

- heart to heart chats

- FUCKING SHITTY NEWS: LOST MY THUMBDRIVE WHICH CONTAINS MY PROJECTS

- disturb simonne at 3monkeys ( definitely meet you soon, babe! )

- celebrate my ~~youngest~~ oldest gf's 20th birthday - CHAN CAIHUA
( pictures to be uploaded later when i received them )

- impromptu meet up with the usual suspects

- movie & kbox plan, failed

- replaced it with ...

chilling at the pub & at my house & frog leg porridge & mutarbak

yesterday was fun and many secrets where let out.

(:

it was then a realised, i fell over heels very easily.

BUT, there are only 3 ppl who really did managed to blow my mind off

time for me to go out and change hp.

gd day ppl!

tag replies when i back!

its been awhile

2008-07-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

lately this matter have been bugging me,

where do i go from poly? ( thats if i even make it out of poly )

and i simply have no idea of my future.

nothing motivates me now,

absolutely nothing at all.

except to rot to my death.

and its on this day again,

i feel like my existence on this world is meaningless.

super redundant in all that i do.

i think i need a new source of motivation.

exams are approaching in 1 month time.

time to mug 4 subjects all from scratch,

how appealing, not at all.

theres a different side of me, you have not yet seen.

2008-07-12T01:33:00.003+08:00

i think i m turning into a wonder-pig now.

i think the comfy bedsheets are to be blamed. (:

and my bolster and pillow! they have the most nicest scent - the perfume of me!

HAHA! i know, very ....

anw, the moment i have contact with my bed with the current bedsheet ,

( i had this set of bedsheet since pri 1 )

i just snooze off to dreamland.

but why are my dark eye circles still obvious?

anw, main issue is ...

i also dunno what the main issue!

so i had this interesting chat with the beloved gf of mine.

it started from tuition timing to circle of friends and *SPOOOF* legacy.

amazing how small details can lead to greater topics?

i m intrigued though,

( kindly take time to think and leave a comment on my tagboard! )

through you, the reader eye.

1) what kind of person am i, through my blog?

2) and for those who knows me, what kind of person am i to you?

* projects deadlines are approaching, better get started so i can ask xl for more help! HEHE.

secret

2008-07-11T00:11:00.001+08:00

i got a big secret.

(:

i just realised i can go to NIE straight after olvl.

my mood is dampen now.

!@#$%^&*

a short-fuse

2008-07-10T11:07:00.003+08:00

a friend of mine was telling me,

he is going to start a blog too.

purpose : to record the memories

the moment i read that sentence , many nostalgic feelings whacked me.

my purpose of my blog initially was to record the beautiful & bad memories to share with my friends.

slowly, the purpose changed..

not drastically, but i vent my anger on the blog or even to show my disgust over things & humans.

and very slowly,

i stop recording down my memories except for some occasions (eg. group outing, birthday celebrations).

and on those occasions, they are part of somebody else's memories too,

i didnt write much but just displayed pictures.

yes, i know..

a picture means a thousand words however,

sometimes the many individual views of how the memories are viewed differs.

yes, i know i am a wordy person.

(:

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as all of you have know by now...

i give tuition.

its been a good 5 months.

i love all of them although they can get into my nerves at times,

which is when i will do the neccessary- scolding.

and i must say...

this boy have been on the receiving end of my temper.

junhao, my number 1 receiver.

he is a bright boy but...

a little too big in the head when being sung praises to.

and following up...

byran

posing to the camera.

a bright boy but a lazy one. ( sorry angelia! )

he is cute in a sense that when he knows he made me angry,

he will quickly come out with some stupid actions or very quickly apologise.

the rest of my tuition wards are better now.

(:

i know it seems unbelievable that i will lost my patience while teaching ...

but what i did, was all for their own good.

aisehs, i feel like a naggy old woman now.

i just looked at the time, its 11.37am!

SHIT, i haven bathe.

got to reach school by 12 to makan with 5hopie.

and so ..

this post will end very abruptly.

2008-07-07T00:17:00.004+08:00

intimacy , passion and commitment are 3 main aspects in a relationship.

liking someone means intimacy level is high but passion and commitment are low. ( oooh.. sounds familiar ? i always wonder what is it like to be kissed by a cutie! heh. )

infatuation is a strong passion in the absence of intimacy and commitment. ( happens to everybody too, every now and then ehs? )

empty love is commitment without intimacy or passion. ( those kind who wait for the beloved who is always with another person, RESPECT to them. )

romantic love is high in intimacy and passion with less commitment. ( not a commitment person, have to stay away from such. but then again........ )

companionate love is high in intimacy and commitment with less passion. ( no passions, honey! )

fatuous love is high in passion and commitment with intimacy! ( the best to make the relationship going )

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its been a good 2 months.

i have learn a few good and painful lessons, i must say.

i cant proudly say that i have let it all go completely.

but at least, 70 percent of the aches doesnt aches so badly anymore. (:

it still does aches every now and then, but when i think of the happier moments.

the aches fade away,

from the above mentioned, i think it was in the middle of infatuation and romantic love for you.

i wont deny, the thought of ur lips send chills down my spine

HOWEVER

i am glad we didnt bring it to the next level.

although sometimes i wonder what it was like to call you my man but thennn,

some things are better left this way.

thanks for being baddie.

soon, my-smell-chilli- friend, its really soon.

start digging your ears while i complain nonstop.

2008-07-06T21:24:00.003+08:00

my inner thigh with that disgusting blob.

this is part my stomach, ignore the red line.

look at those dots!

very disgusting right?

imagine the my body have to have all those blobs, then i can be considered as recovered!

doctor says, for 2 weeks minimum.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHBOOOOOOOOSHEEEEEEEE.

okay, it isnt chickenpox.

much to my disappoint! heh.

chickenpox = no school for 2 weeks.

okay, so the big hoo ha is over.

time to start mugging,

i need mugging kahkis.

until then,

gdnight!

*PS, TAG AFTER READING LAH. IRENE IS SICK, SHE NEED LOTS OF TLC DOSAGE. :)

2008-07-05T21:52:00.002+08:00

hahahaha.

i think i have chicken pox now.

freaking shit.

having chicken pox = no air con / avoid touching water

CRAP

no air con = DEAD.

everynight without fail, i sleep with air con & fan.

wah lau ehs,

si bei sians now.

2008-07-03T01:28:00.002+08:00

I AM FUCKING IRRITATED NOW.

fuck jsp. fuck beans. fuck java. fuck sp.

and fuck you!

a friend in need, is a friend indeed.

2008-07-01T23:35:00.002+08:00

sunday was spent with xl&val&john.

meet up dinner with pris&mon&tws at maxwell, the porridge not too bad lah.

the chicken feets were the BEST.

so the destination from school, to bishan and then to chinatown.

lucky, i decided to borrowed the car cause we stay until 2am doing the damn thing.

actually, i was idling my time away while xl&john were doing the codes.

send them all back and only came into contact with my pillow at 3.30am!

same goes for monday, stayed in school until 12mindnight!

cabbed to the nearest mac and gossiped a lot on GARYSON. :D

got home at 2am, super shaaggg.

woke up at 7.30am for gems!

so, to show my appreciation!

thank you a lot, yap xian long & teo jin fu john.

couldnt have scrap through the whole project, without the help from the both of you.

it none of your business but the time, blood, sweat you guys have put in to help me.

i am extremely touched, i was very closed to tears at one point of time.

because from the way i see, i dun think i deserve friends like you ppl.

very unselfish in wasting your time on a normal friend.

very willing to go all the way to help.

very helpful to waste your brain cells.

i salute you, guys!

without you, i have no idea what am i going to do.

as for this, i promised myself.

i will make the last 3 semesters in sp, a very fullfilling one.

and if ever one day, you guys need help, call me.

i will return the favour if its within my ability.

:)

2008-06-28T10:59:00.001+08:00

yesterday night, after some discussion and very impromptu plans.

i sneaked out and drove out to far away bishan & serangoon gardens for supper.

the company i had was wicked, in a good way.

who else will go out for supper in the middle of the night at last minute notice?

ans: pris, xianlong, don & weishen. ( gary! next time join us leh)

so i got a taste of a road block,

my first time in that situtation.

was quite excited and nervous at the same time.

thank goodness i decided to took my license out, else...

the police officers are like so weird can,

one of them wanted to let me passed.

another didnt let me, asked to check my license.

like, seriously.. -.-'' can!!

anw, my parents found out that i sneaked out and drove the car.

i am surprised there wasnt any scolding or grounding or whatsoever.

in fact, my dad surprised me by saying, why never ask him to go along also.

LOL.

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dbms and math over the week was, like sleeping periods for me.

pris&garyson&don came over on thursday, attempted to study.

they ended up teaching me math which i was very closed in giving up.

persuade dad to let me drive once more, to sent them home.

:)

the feeling to be able to drive again is SHIOKNESS.

i want to bid farewell to- MRT & BUS RIDES, really really soon.

say a little prayer for me, will you?

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happy 20th birthday, traceson soo.

no longer a teenager!! its a big, 2 infront now.

hohoho! stay crappy & happy always.

anw, hope you enjoyed your day!

2008-06-24T19:30:00.007+08:00

phuture last friday was like the tides.

the mood was from ^HIGHto _LOWto ^HIGHand than totally ..... FLAT.

there were many many pictures taken however, almost all are too embarrassing to be shown.

so i only show a few.

i didnt even realised i was dancing with ..... or ......

GAHHH & BLAHHHHHH BOOOOS!

brought my greatest love for them !! shldnt have brought the whole bottle when i reached.

they mixed coke + heineken + chivas,

it was superbly horrid tasting, waste my love!!

it resulted to some bad hangovers, am i glad i wasnt one of the receiver!

so the night ended really quick,

wiggled and shaked and whatnots for like, half an hour.

over the weekends,

my parents decided to add urobics into the family.

its supposed to be delivered really soon, now i can lose weight easily. (:

i love family outings because it great to see my baby cousins.

the night ended with a conference call with toh toh & mong mong !

yesterday was hardcore studying and fooling around.

pris & garyson & don came over,

we mugged, played, joked, viwawa-ed ( CRAP, i am addicted! ) and spent quality time.

" STIFF and HARDEN, no more. "

" pppiiiuuuuuu, flys over. "

inside jokes, damn HIGH can.

more of these sessions, pretty please.

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OKAY, SO THIS VERY SMART WRITER WHICH YOU ARE READING.

burned midnight oil until 5am and went to sleep.

she intended to wake up and go for GEMS but...

she overshot and didnt made it to school.

SO, this very sleep-deprived girl went to school,

feeling very shagged and scared. ( first time for MST )

THATS NOT ALL,

she fell asleep while doing the paper.

LEFT THE LAST QUESTION [ 20m ] untouched.

is she smart or what?

&& HUH ...

she smart enough to write the answers onto the question paper and not the answer script!

and she fell asleep because she think got more than enough time to copy the answers over.

tell me,

is she smart or is she smart?

FUCK, ITS DBMS TML.

i feel sleepy.

toodles doo.

* edited: i watched telly until now- 11pm. good game to me.

paper is at 8.30 am in the morning, i haven study yet.

ho ho ho .

2008-06-19T21:23:00.002+08:00

i am a happy girl because......

i managed to drilled half of dbms and half icd into my thick skull,

now i wish it will stay inside, intact.

haven touch amath yet.

i need a short term tutor, or anybody willing to teach the dimwit amath.?

math is retarded,

i still wonder why do i need to learn math when it has absolutely nothing to do with my course?

GRRR.

i hate math,

AMATHS MAKES ME MAD.

night out tml night, i cant wait for it.

part of me wants to get dead drunk, but i am sure i wont be allowed.

nvm, i shall drink at home first. heh.

dance dance dance, shake shake shake, wiggle wiggle wiggle the heartaches away.

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certain lyrics kept replaying in my mind over and over again.

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真
忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中
直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

how true.

i am very sorry to those who sincerely love me.

i know who you are, and i appreciate the things that you did.

but theres things called fate & destiny too.

we are fated to know each other but we dont have the destiny to be together.

such is the irony of life,

because i am experiencing the things i did to others.

is it karma, or is it simply called, life?

2008-06-19T19:53:00.006+08:00

due to my request for the cutest girl to write an entry on the nicest girl naming me.

she wants one entry back too, in return for writing about me. (:

so here you go,

priscillia toh hwee leng, the cutest or is it super cool girl.

her transformation from super boyish to what she claims now..

50x(100x) cool chic,

is WOW WOW WOW WOW..!!

the length of her hair grows to a length before she cant stands it and wants to snip it off.

i remember her saying: she wants to be different & stand out, and not to look boring.

and i remember telling her: shaving her hair away will definitely make her stand out.

for my intended goodwill, she just stared back at me ,

like i am some idiot. ):

we have been classmates since sec 3 but never got the chance to bond,

until sec 5, the last year in kcp.

running or brisk walking to school after a rather heavy breakfast.

prata, mee hoon, wanton mee OR dumpling noodle.

imagine gobbling down at a quick pace and then,

zooming off to school.

the thrills to always try to make it before the bell rings.

the small quarrels we have but somehow draws us closer,

her frankness and crude ways of speech, a normal stranger cant comprehend.

" i go home and install for you to see "

but that what make priscilliaa toe hweeee leng, attractive. heh.

she always like to ask, if she put on any weight.

if i reply yes, she pouts and starts swearing.

if i reply no, she grins non stop.

and i still think you look like that cartoon character from grinch or that black cat with a tall hat (from i dunno where)

she is the girl who dares to do anything you dare her to.

more daring than me lah.

she likes to take photos and makes me stand on her right,

me SO hate it because of my dimple. ):

next time, must share share the left hand side.

anw TOE ! you have been amazing and do continue being so,

no words can express my gratitude for your presence in my life.

i know i haven been around in your life for some time,

but i am super glad,

no matter how far we are or how rarely we meet,

our friendship never change a single bit.

same for simonne dear too, ok?

i have so little of your unglam pictures,

i wonder why.

you girls are the next best things that can happen to my mundane life.

(: (: (:

no matter how far i might drift away from you two,

i just want you two to know,

i do treasure the times we spent, the talks we have, the advices that you gave me ( i know i am damn stubborn at times) and all the many small things we have done together.

i know too, that i drifted away and you both have always been so patient with me whenever i need a listening ear, esp you, TOE.

and just to let you know, if i ever get married, you girls have to be my sisters ok? (:

love you girls!

2008-06-17T23:44:00.016+08:00

saturday's night out was splendid!

late night-out with great company is LOVE.

the date fetched me at 12.30am.

the date is shy. heh.

travelled form queenstown to meet up with the rest at boonlay!

and off we went to still road.

only settled down at 2.30am for supper.

we were practically half-dead and starving.

kiensing's and weidi's SUPPER.

my date and mine's :)

after filling our stomachs, impromptu plans to go to ECP.

a bit childish but super fun loh.

go ecp to not enjoy the breeze BUT ..

go catch ppl rocking the cars.

in the end, we got pointed the middle finger. heh.

weidi

kiensing and cousin

1 yr without seeing some of them, the feeling was weird initially.

but i m glad shengchen made it all possible.

i am sure your driving will be prefect one day!

nothing can expressed how much that outing meant to me.

:)

lastly, thanks jinhua for driving me back too!

the heart-to-heart chats were the best ones i had.

now WAIT till i get my carkeys back, :)

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slept like 5 hours before mum woke me up.

got ready and off to fetch grandparents to marina mandrine,

for the solemnisation and wedding dinner of my cousin.

.

the whole affair was simple and sweet.

makes me want to get married too,

but to who? :(

cam whoring with the family.

the beloved aunty.

wah lau ehs, my face not that chubbby de lohh.

my age group of cousins, junkai missing lah !

i was the maria with all the bags.

reception area.

the place where the vows are exchanged.

here come the bride...

simple and nice, i like.

both of them are 25 yrs old.

imagine me being a bride.. 5 yrs from now.

hard to imagine, i know.

well, a little fantasy doesnt kills right?

afterwhich, it was BUFFET time.

I SO LOVE THE STRAWBERRIES WITH WHIPPED CREAM CAN.

i had numerous serving of these.

sinfulllicious !

i was a complete glutton.

hao lian to pris and in the end,

i had the uncomfortablest stomache the whole night.

vommitted and shitted, but still ..

i think i overate.

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study with val at the lib!

sorry girl, it wasnt productive at all.

how huh, MST are coming and i haven started any productive studying.

GONER lah me, :(

anw, watched THE HULK with many many ppl.

not nice de loh,

i think ironman nicer!

ate at hongkong cafe before the movie.

hilarious jokes happened,

and garyson, where's the part 2 and 3 of your tuition experiences ??

next time must complete, cannot go by installments. :)

HIDE YOUR WEAPON...

heart these girls. :)

rochor tau huay for desserts.

home sweet home, after which.

thanks melvin for the ride back.

i know i am a damn good driver. :)

just that i have no sense of direction!

2008-06-14T22:13:00.003+08:00

2nd week of the holiday literally zoomed passed me.

as much as i enjoyed myself over the week,

i have to mug much harder for the upcoming MST .

boos to that!

time really flies when you are having fun

1a23 chalet was fun to a certain extent.

couldnt help but to feel left out most of the time,

prob minh and huimin werent there and val had to leave earlier.

there are 1001 reasons i felt weird and the humongous urge to post the reasons out

but i recently learnt not to say anything much on my blog.

5hope chalet was much much fun compared to 1a23,

prob because i was there the entire night.

BUT, even if i am at the 1a23 side...

OUTCAST was the feeling even if i have faiz crapping with me.

perhaps its the differences of our own groups and stuff.

or maybe, its just me.

before the emo-ness kicks in, better hop over to 5hope chalet!

ps-ed pris while i went over to my class side.

sorry dear! me didnt meant to do so ok! :)

managed to convinced my parents with the help of garyson, to let me stay overnight.

on the conditions that my sister follows.

didnt touch much food on both bbqs on the first night,

i had like 1 mushroom thingy, 2 chicken wings, 3 satays over at my class.

sneaked 2 wings and 2 satays and a plate of beehoon for my sister and don.

and that was all i had for the entire night!

didnt felt hungry cause the fun i had, made up for it.

there were many card games being played- bluff, lvl 1 pig, heart attack, big and small.

i brought my TWISTER MAP to do some twisting. :)

night cycling was the main event!

the aftermath was that ..

our butts didnt felt like it belonged to us and that goes to show,

yours sincerely didnt really exercise for a long long time.

imagine, the last time i had a decent workout was in yr 2005!

the occasional jogs and 1 time gym session, useless.

my thighs suffered a lot and my non existent buttocks too.

imagine from pasir ris to some ulu ulu straight road.

the guys want to go OCH but i strongly protest! :)

so we cycled for like 1.30 to 8am in the morning with the occasional breaks.

headed back to shower and "FLOP" unto the bed and slept.

woke up a few times as its too squeezy and stuffy,

me need to sleep with aircon + fan switched on.

so we woke up and lazed around till 4pm or so to go have our breakfast cum lunch.

and back to the room for more card games.

lazed until we are all hungry,

had dinner and off we went- HOME.

slept like a log,

i think got 14 hours straight.

purrrrfeccto !

been awhile since i had such long and undisturbed beauty sleep.

okay, its kinda lengthy alrdy..

SO.. pictures galore!

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that day at science centre ..

the kids!

shiyunn my k2 girl.

chicks hatching!

fooling around.

bryan and his lookalike. GRINS.

nice impact hor.

behind the scene.

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1a23 chalet

me.faiz.junlin.

jumping shot attempt, FAILED.

unglam is the new pretty.

nehneh, i got blocked by junlin. BUT his expression damn priceless!

the 2 naked and 1/2 naked guys.

nehneh blocked by satays!

chefs at work.

marco's injured foot and my leg!

their hardwork paid off.

look at the satay lah, damn nicely cooked.

i was supposed to posed with the satays covering my nose.

while cooking satays and due to heat, i think the heat got into his brain and made him HIGH.

like super high can!!

tilt your head for the video, priceless.

presenting... yong xiang!

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5hope chalet.

while waiting for bus AND when boredom strikes..

you just have to take photos to kill time. :)

xianlong.

garyson buttocks so smallll. hehe.

prissy love.

i am flying.

alone is boring, so 3 is good.

not nice.

better if i m flying too.

checking out the sceneries ?

main focus is ME, not the guys.

feeling at home alrdy.

so candid but NICE. :)

jumping shot on the bed?

the skin colour difference. stop tanning!

garyson!

tws!

tws & pris

william.

groupie!

group pictures stolen from sam's blog! if you are reading this, HELLO & THANKS! :) :) :)

TWISTER TIME because inside the room there were ppl ...

playing with psp.

so engrossed loh.

bluffffff.

got mahjong oso lah, those mj addicts. ( i think, mj for old ppl still. )

tws with the spin.

starting out so finne and easyyy.

check out tws's hands. kinnnky!

untangled up.

hehe.

twist, twist, TWIST.

a real TWIST and my leg again! :)

pris, nice smell not?? hehe.

smiling while been twisted up, no joke!

taking a break from twistttinnngg.

:)

i wished i had farted then, she will collapse.

afterwhich, it was the very much anticipated night cycle!

upon the arrival of simonne, we set off for the night :)

simonnne honey pie.

loves them very the much.

can spot me??

the guy who made it all possible!

check out melvin expression.

SMILE not to grimace.

all the bikes.

taking a breakk.

hello xianlong!

the guys.

6 girls and 1 guy.

although i nv cycle much, my thigh hurts ok.

and then, SLEEP TIME.

breakfast cum lunch session, more card games.

loser get whacked!

home sweet home for me and sister!

heard they went for a night walk and told ghost stories,

thank goodness i wasnt there.

i get freaked out easily.

:)

GARYSON, THANKS FOR MAKING IT ALL POSSIBLE.

i really did enjoyed myself ALOT.

to the people present, you guys rocks.

may our friendship stays this way, despite leaving kcp for about 2.5 yrs alrdy.

no matter what and how corny this sounds,

me love 5hope !

:) :) :)

2008-06-13T15:08:00.000+08:00

back from chalets and had ample rest time!

but still too lazy to do any updates SO...

TAG REPLIES FOR THIS ENTRY!

garyson: hahaha wish that u able to enjoy urself in the chalet!! thanks for coming..btw i think u shld go OCH change ur luck soon!! lols!!

irene to garyson : yeahs, i did enjoyed myself. esp the night cycling part, although i cant feel my butt and thighs the next day. the fun was worth it! :) OCH will be a big NO-No still.

simonne: and spam too. simonne: and i just want to bug you simonne: hello my dearest! i miss misss missssss missssssssssssss missssss you can! faster meet me laa! i enjoyed myself at the chalet okay! loves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

irene to simonne: oh honey, i miss you a lot too! although i wasnt there on the last night, but the chalet was fun fun fun! yeahs, meet me soon to demonstrate how garyson & don slept! clubbing soon, too! spam me all you want, me dun mind. hehe. muack!

MacSpicy: (= just call the no. if u need any additional help MacSpicy: Currently, MacDonna Co. has just set up a new fund for the unfortunate ones who is seriously in need of luck to change their life. Not everyone is appllicable for such a fund. MacSpicy: We have gone through many candidates and we have chosen you out of the many. We are willing to donate all the luck which we have kept over the years.
irene to macspicy: do donate only the good luck and not the bad ones over! :) i dont mind having good luck overdosage. i can see why i have been chosen as i dont think theres is anybody more unluckier than me. :(

quan: see u at the engagement party

irene to quan: yes yes ! 4pm right? junkai not in sg sia, lets sit at the same table! hehe. but then again, i will be seeing you on saturday night also right?! our food feast after 12 midnight. :) pity i cant drive! more to update you!

jeremy: hello irene ... done any holiday homework ? hmm and btw it was a fun chalet at downtown we even saw the booch !!

irene to jeremy: hello jeremy, first time tagging! more to come, i hope! :) so far, i haven done anything regarding school work, what about you? fun chalet , i agree to a certain extent! oh yes, the booochh, now i cant guan ming zhen da turn and look at her in the lecture hall since she is bound to recognize me now. :(

Fizz: roarrrrrr.

irene to fizz: GROWLS.

shengchen: IRENE!! sat reaching soon le, are u prepared?? haha

irene to shengchen: SHENGCHEN! i am in high anticipation mode. bring it on sia! shld organise such a trip a long time ago le, not when the holidays are ending lah. anw, 100km is the slowest hor! :) drifting too, if possible. hehe.

xianlong: 1% still not enough.. you very greedy le. here you goes. another 1% .. dun be too rush .. you cant receive too much =)

irene to xianlong: 2% received. wah, this is not call greedy. this is call.... despo of good luck! haha! meet soon. clubbing trip streadyyyy mahhh.

Geng Zhong: anyway this retard has lung cancer and u wont be seein him soon enough =] Geng Zhong: btw my names means Geng(straight forward) Zhong(loyal) thanks for the tip thou, will cover my mouth next time

irene to gengzhong : firstly, my apologises for giving you degrading terms and labeling you. my mistake for mistaking your lung cancer cough for a normal cough. i didnt meant to curse you or anything BUT, it is rude to be coughing around the class with your mouth uncovered. my bad for defaming and giving you degrading names. now that you clarify that you have lung cancer, i sincerely apologise to you. and if you really have lung cancer, i sincerely hope you can recover soon. however, if you were just lying to gain sympathy then you can save it. hope to come to an agreement of you covering your mouth when you cough. i promise i wont mention your name again in my blog. sorry if i upset you. :) peace alright ?

minh: I haven't come back yet, at least till 20/6 minh: sorry, yesterday i go to sleep forgot to log out . why you want to tell me?

irene to minh: i want to tell you, when you coming back! but u apparently is only coming back on the 20th. you owe me and valarie, no need huimin a treat. because you ps-ed us at the chalet!

colleen: and will always be.
colleen: you're always lucky my dear

irene to colleen: muack you my honey sweetie!! thanks for your good wishes. :) pity you never came to the chalet.

neo: haha you look like selena, our supervisor, when u r in pri sch..

irene to neo: wah lau eh, i think i am so cute loh. how can compare me to selena !!!!! :) clubbing when huh!!!

thl: awwwww haha!

irene to thl: dun awwwww lah, i know you shy to accept my declaration so suddenly. hehe.

jieYONG: lol you did say you quit clubbing. =)

irene to jieyong: yes yes yes! i did but now i m taking my words back! hehe.